Pull My Hair a Little Harder Please [Harry Potter, Drarry, multichapter]

Pull My Hair a Little Harder Please by batondecannelle

“Potter,” he says. 

Harry’s knees feel weak. He stumbles a few feet closer to the other boy and then stops. His chest feels tight, and his vision is swimming, and he doesn’t know how to ask for what he desperately needs. 

“I’m, I’m—” he stammers, his hands shaking. 

Draco looks around them at the empty library, and then back at Harry. “Come here,” he says. 

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Harry was excited to come back for one more year of Hogwarts. One last year where there’s nothing to worry about, no basilisks or dementors or psychotic murderers. 

So why does he keep having panic attacks, and why is it always Draco Malfoy finding him right in the middle of one? 

It sounds really weird that there is not that many fics about mental health in Potter fandom. Like.  You have a world where has been a war with children being the most importat characters. And people just keep writing like none of that really happened or matters. Don't get me wrong, I love those fics too, but Im kind of just waiting more of these kinds of fics? If that makes any sense.

Okay. This is still not a way to deal with mental health and depression and PTSD. But in fiction, this is okay and fine. All that other stuff on the other hand, how out of it Harry was without even understanding it. How it just got worse and worse. How he didn't have any tools to help himself or understand what was going. Those are the parts I liked about this. This felt real, like he really was lost and everything had just gone to shits. 

Draco was left as a little bit mysterious. I liked that. I liked how it was all about Harry surviving and trying to understand. Everything else was just background, even if it helped. But nothing was really clear or linear in here, it was just how Harry felt everything. Mushy, dark, hopeless, sad, lost.