Barbe-Q&A [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot]

Barbe-Q&A by prailock 

In their first summer after being outed, Shane finally accepts that invite to Bood's backyard barbecue. It could have been a relaxing night. But Ilya's brought vodka. And the Centaurs brought questions. Might as well rip off the band aid before he signs with Ottawa.  Or How many shots is it worth to know what your Captain likes in bed?

I had my doubts because of Reddit (yea where else could I find good fics nowdays if not from Reddit?). I dont like the recommends over there, or maybe I like about 25% of them. Maybe 30%. But I always try to give them an opportunity and keep an open mind for them. Still. Yeah. Im picky. 

ANYWAYS. This just got better and better the further I got. Usually its the other way around. Not this time. Seriously. So goooood.  

Historic Recurrence [Merlin, Merthur]

Historic Recurrence by KlavierWrites 

Every 500 years or so, Merlin would meet a reincarnated Arthur, Morgana, Gwen and assorted knights. Every time, Merlin and Arthur would become friends, Morgana would betray them, and Arthur would pick Gwen. Merlin was getting kind of sick of it, actually. (Merlin/Arthur, university fic)

Me trying to figure out all the Merthur fics I have left here without blogging about them. There are a lot of them. And this one. No clue actually.

I liked this one back in the day, I still do. I just. I really wish this was longer and the writer would take more time with shit. Just because I need more of everything. I need to know about all the past lives, how they all were different and similiar. How Merling deals with reincarnated people. How he keeps with everything.

Seriously. I just need a lot more. Maybe I just have to get back to this fandom and reread everything. Maybe. Idk. 

To Remember [F1, LandOscar, oneshot]

To Remember by piastrification (goldenflora)  

When Oscar starts to cough up daisy petals, he finds that there is more than one way to forget. He doesn’t want to forget for a lifetime, he thinks- just every once in a while.  

The alternative ending to “To Forget”.

To be honest, I dont know which I prefer. I really would love to say that this one. But maybe Im just a sucker for punishment and I prefer the other one. 

Besides all that. I still love Hanahaki stories. Maybe I just love to cry and suffer. Maybe.  

the boy who blocked his own shot [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot]

the boy who blocked his own shot by alasse

Ilya’s dad dies right before the 2017 All-Star Game, so he never learns that Shane and Rose broke up. While he’s in Russia, a threat from his brother makes him ask Svetlana for help and marry her so he can get a US green card—it’s meant to be a discreet, simple thing, but the Boston tabloids get a hold of it and then it’s all over social media. Three months later, Shane Hollander holds a press conference to share two things: he's leaving Montreal to play for the Ottawa Centaurs, and he's gay.

This is way too short. I need more and deeper and I need to know what happens next. Okay. I need to know what actually happened in those four or something years. I need details and longer fics. 

What I dont need is to cry and destroy my emotional balance every day. Fuck fanfics. Fuck this fandom. Fuck everything about this hyperfocus. Seriously. 

Tubes of Neon Light, Refracted [Game Changers, Hollanov, nc-17]

Tubes of Neon Light, Refracted by bluerosebouquet  

His entire body felt tense as the door was pushed open. He trained his eyes on the floor, monologuing before he could stop himself, 

“Just so you know, my buddies paid for this dance for me and I’m sure you’re very nice and very pretty and good at what you do but I’m actually gay so you can just- Do what you need to do but I don’t want you to be offended because I’m not as into this as you’re probably…usually…used to…” 

He trailed away as he looked up, and met the eyes of the very tall, very broad, very handsome man leaning against the doorframe.  

They stared at each other, and Shane blinked, struck dumb. 

Or, the night of JJ's bachelor party, Shane is forced into a lap dance he very much does not want. Until he does, and everything changes.

This is not even that sad. But I was still crying almost straight from the beginning. Maybe this hit some a really sore spot somewhere deep in me. Probably. 

Or maybe I see a little bit too much of myself in Shane and cannot not be normal about anything. Something.