Baby, Bend Over [Game Changers, Hollanov]

Baby, Bend Over by TemporaryAltars 

Shane is convinced that Ilya Rozanov—captain of the Boston Bears and Shane’s newest student—hates him. 

Ilya joined Shane's yoga class specifically to get closer to the hot instructor, but every attempt at flirting only seems to make things worse. 

Neither of them has any idea the other is completely in love with them.

I hate this fandom for one reason and one reason only (okay I probs could find more reasons but Im lazy). I can always see myself in Shane, in one or another. I can understand him way too well, can relate to him and so on. Which is a first for me. Seriously. 

Maybe thats also the reason why I keep reading these fics and loving them so much. Mostly Im just over the series and cant be bothered to rewatch or reread the books. But the fics. 

Yea. This one just hit me the right way. No clue even why. But yea. I should be working and being a functional adult, instead Im reading these two fuckers fall in love again and again. 

Barbe-Q&A [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot]

Barbe-Q&A by prailock 

In their first summer after being outed, Shane finally accepts that invite to Bood's backyard barbecue. It could have been a relaxing night. But Ilya's brought vodka. And the Centaurs brought questions. Might as well rip off the band aid before he signs with Ottawa.  Or How many shots is it worth to know what your Captain likes in bed?

I had my doubts because of Reddit (yea where else could I find good fics nowdays if not from Reddit?). I dont like the recommends over there, or maybe I like about 25% of them. Maybe 30%. But I always try to give them an opportunity and keep an open mind for them. Still. Yeah. Im picky. 

ANYWAYS. This just got better and better the further I got. Usually its the other way around. Not this time. Seriously. So goooood.  

Historic Recurrence [Merlin, Merthur]

Historic Recurrence by KlavierWrites 

Every 500 years or so, Merlin would meet a reincarnated Arthur, Morgana, Gwen and assorted knights. Every time, Merlin and Arthur would become friends, Morgana would betray them, and Arthur would pick Gwen. Merlin was getting kind of sick of it, actually. (Merlin/Arthur, university fic)

Me trying to figure out all the Merthur fics I have left here without blogging about them. There are a lot of them. And this one. No clue actually.

I liked this one back in the day, I still do. I just. I really wish this was longer and the writer would take more time with shit. Just because I need more of everything. I need to know about all the past lives, how they all were different and similiar. How Merling deals with reincarnated people. How he keeps with everything.

Seriously. I just need a lot more. Maybe I just have to get back to this fandom and reread everything. Maybe. Idk. 

To Remember [F1, LandOscar, oneshot]

To Remember by piastrification (goldenflora)  

When Oscar starts to cough up daisy petals, he finds that there is more than one way to forget. He doesn’t want to forget for a lifetime, he thinks- just every once in a while.  

The alternative ending to “To Forget”.

To be honest, I dont know which I prefer. I really would love to say that this one. But maybe Im just a sucker for punishment and I prefer the other one. 

Besides all that. I still love Hanahaki stories. Maybe I just love to cry and suffer. Maybe.  

the boy who blocked his own shot [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot]

the boy who blocked his own shot by alasse

Ilya’s dad dies right before the 2017 All-Star Game, so he never learns that Shane and Rose broke up. While he’s in Russia, a threat from his brother makes him ask Svetlana for help and marry her so he can get a US green card—it’s meant to be a discreet, simple thing, but the Boston tabloids get a hold of it and then it’s all over social media. Three months later, Shane Hollander holds a press conference to share two things: he's leaving Montreal to play for the Ottawa Centaurs, and he's gay.

This is way too short. I need more and deeper and I need to know what happens next. Okay. I need to know what actually happened in those four or something years. I need details and longer fics. 

What I dont need is to cry and destroy my emotional balance every day. Fuck fanfics. Fuck this fandom. Fuck everything about this hyperfocus. Seriously.