the limitations of maddocks questions [Game Changers, Hollanov]

the limitations of maddocks questions by viviolet  

when shane gets the injury that would come to end his career, in the moment he’s just thankful he didn’t break his jaw. 

or: shane knew, in the abstract, that one day he would play his last professional nhl game. it never occurred to him that hockey would choose that day for him.

The thing is. I didnt think I would be crying this bad at the end. I didnt even cry before the end if chapter four. But I just couldnt stop in the fifth. Fuck. I am still crying and still feeling this. 

The other thing is that I somewhat know what this whole thing really feels like. Not in the capasity that you have given your whole life to it but almost everything else. And maybe thats the biggest reason I just cant stop crying. And the reason that I just wont be reading this ever again, never. I cant go trough this again. 

Other than all of that. I really loved how this is written from Shane's point of view. I loved every single cap there was in the story, how it all seemed like a fog and how you were kind of just out of it. Everything happened there somewhere but Shane's brain couldnt process almost any of it. So the story didnt process some of it and you only found out about a lot of it later on 

There has had to be a fuck ton of planning ahead of this fic. Everything felt just so peaceful all the time, kind of a really surreal way. Which yea. At the end it all just came crashing down. 

To be honest. I thought this would be more about the life Shane has after retairnment and less about the months (weeks? days?) leading to retairnment. But I still more than loved this take. More than loved every second of it. Every word and every take and just every single part of this fic. 

Diamond, Gold and Platinum. [F1, Landoscar, oneshot]

Diamond, Gold and Platinum. by deletedaccountjustkiddingunless 

Lando saw one message—“which gives off more engagement ring energy: diamond, gold, or platinum?”—from his best mate, his ride-or-die, his official roommate and teammate Oscar… and instantly spiralled into a full-blown identity crisis, an emotional implosion, and possibly a parallel dimension where nothing made sense anymore.

I dont know if I am crying or laughing. Probably both. Yea. Both. 

And I just cant. This perfection. The spiraling. The dating. Everything. MAX. Max is the best. And!this dumb little fruitcake being in denial. 

Just everything. I just love Lando in every single fic. How unhinged, out of this world he is. Just. Love everything. I want this version of him to be sacred and kept in a bubble. Just dont destroy it. Just dont. I dont wanna know anything but the fic version of him. Nothing else. 

I do like Oscar too. I like my little headcanon of him being this autistic boy who just surviving Lando's schenanings every day and trying to understand what the fuck is going on. 

These two little sweet boys. 

clear to a hedgehog [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot, nc-17]

clear to a hedgehog by magneticwave 

Every Boston Raider knows that although their captain has a girl in every port, he’s got a soft spot for the one in Montreal. Dr. Shane Hollander knows it’s better to have a semi-regular source of casual sex than try to make a relationship work during residency. Ilya Rozanov knows that the doctor he’s fucking in Montreal is unaware that he plays hockey, and in fact probably thinks he’s Bratva.

The problem I have is that I dont know if I want more of this world, this AU or if I want mafia AU with Rozanov being the mafia boss. So maybe we have to go with both. Both is good. Yes. 

But in all seriouslysness. I love the way Ilya is here, the way this is written, how everything is describled. Just love all of it. Everything. 

Even our nice Canadian boy Shane is just pure perfectness. Ah. 

The time jumps, the rookies, the way everything is and how they talk but dont talk. Hockey. Whatnot. Everything. Can I just go and be super fangirling over this the rest of my life? Pretty please and thank you. 

my love's ugly bloom [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot]

my love's ugly bloom by Anonymous 

Shane sends him a text that says 'thinking about your cock' with a picture of his rippling abs, and even though Ilya really appreciates the abs, all he can think about is the faint bruise blooming on Shane's ribs, and whether it hurts him very badly, and whether there's anything Ilya could do to make it hurt less, if he were there. He wants to be there, he realizes. He wants to be there for the rest of his life. 

He has to duck out of the team weight room so he can cough up a fistful of petals. 

So. 

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Or: Ilya gets Hanahaki disease.

I have read way too many Hanahaki fics recently. At some point I even looked for then specifically for those. Just. There is a small part in me who just wants to cry and suffer. 

There is this one thing I cant get over in these fics, what if they fall out of love? Like. They just dont work out anymore, what then? Does the Hanahaki come back or what? 

 

Okay. Thats not really a problem with these two idiots or in fics general. But just something that bothers me sometimes. 

 

This fic is just Ilya being an idiot even when I can actually understand him and the reasoning behind everything. And a lot of feels, sad feels, all the feelings. Fuck. But happy ending is always a plus. The journey getting there is just extra painful. 

Change Your Win Condition [Game Changers, Hollanov, nc-17, multichapter]

Change Your Win Conditions by Vee (Vera_DragonMuse) 

Sometimes life came at you with a clenched fist and Ilya had never figured out how to duck. 

So here he was, twenty-eight years old, single, dealing with the fallout from injuries given to him by the game he loved, and the second youngest assistant coach in the league to one of the worst teams. Stability was hard to come by, but he was managing. 

Then along came Shane Hollander to knock him on his ass, one more time.

I dont usually read fics that are not finished. The main reason is that I forget about them and so I never will really finish them (even when I subscribe for them). Im also really impatient and hate waiting. So its just always easier to only read finished fics. 

But this. Someone recommended this in Reddit or somewhere and I opened it without second tought. I almost closed this when I noticed that this was WIP. But. The thing is, people recommend fics and 90 % time I hate those fics because they are generally bad somehow. So I didnt have high hopes about this and didnt even think I would read past first chapter. But damn was I wrong. So fucking wrong.

This is so fucking good. Seriously. I just cant really.

I really like the idea that this time it was Ilya who got the career ending injury and how Svetlana took care of him. I also really loved the timeline and how it fit the Game Changers timeline. Everything just was so damn perfect. Just everything.

So I am more than happy that I broke my rules and found this one. Thank fucking god. 

There is this one scene I fell in love with. The one where Ilya is struggling to tie his skates. He is just taking a moment, counting his breath with eyes closed. And then Shane comes and does it all for him. Basically no words exchanged. Just. That scene. Thats the one I fell in love with. The one part I just want to go and read it again and again and again. 

Everything else is just as good. My head is just stuck in that one scene and one scene only. Shit.