the heart is hard to translate [Game Changers, Hollanov, nc-17]

the heart is hard to translate by catknives 

Shane is twelve when he realizes he can understand Russian. 

Or, in a world where you can understand whatever language(s) your soulmate speaks, it takes Shane and Ilya an embarrassing amount of time to realize they’re soulmates.

I came across the sequel to this and was really surprised I hadnt blogged about it yet. Then I realised I havent blogged about this either. I have read this like back in January when I had this weird obsession with soulmate fics. But some reason I couldnt find this here.

So. Here we go. The sequel is it has a language of its own  

Anyways. I love the idea of understanding each others languages. I also love how there could be problems with it and making the whole learning part difficult. One thing I would like to know what happens when they learn more languages and what consist as native language (I know a guy who is fluent in five languages because he moved his whole childhood and there is not one single language that he could say he is native in, sooo yea).

Other than that. This is just two idiots not realizing whats in front of them. Yep. Just lovely every day fic in other words. Just really, really, really good and I have read this twice already. 

The Jacket [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot]

The Jacket by stvrrlight

Laine took a swig of his beer. “God help whoever is rooming next to Roz tonight.”

Shane felt all the blood drain from his face.

Jesus.

Of course, Ilya was going to sleep with her tonight. She was gorgeous, perfect, and he didn't have to sneak her around the hotel. Why wouldn't he sleep with her? Because of Shane? They didn't mean anything to each other. They were . . . friends, maybe. Roommates, definitely. Even if Rozanov was respectful enough to not bring anyone home while Shane was there, there was nothing stopping him from sleeping with other people while he had his own room on the road.

Months of living together and playing together, Shane and Ilya are living in harmony until Shane has an anxiety attack after seeing Ilya flirt in a sports bar.

I was just going over fics that I wanted to download to Kobo and then found this. My only thought was that this is short, wont take long, doesnt matter if its shitty or anything else. But shit. I liked this. 

This is literally nothing super special. But this kinda makes sense and I liked how fucked up Shane was and how fast. I dont know. Even if its a little bit OOC but like, if Metros have gotten rid of him, that must eat some of his selfesteem so there is that.  

Fall in love with anyone [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot, nc-17]

Fall in love with anyone by sistercacao

“If a crystal ball could tell you the truth about yourself, your life, the future or anything else, what would you want to know?” Quickly, Ilya adds, “Don’t say that you want to know if you win the Cup.”

“Why not? What if that’s my answer?”

“Is so boring, Hollander. Of course you want to know this. But Ilya Rozanov and Boston Raiders exist in this world, so crystal ball says, so sad, but no.”

“Fuck off. What are these questions even for, anyway? Are you interviewing me for something? Wouldn’t you have to, like, tell me if you were?”

Ilya is quick to assure Hollander before his paranoia takes him right out of this phone call. “It is not for interview, Hollander. I am just wondering. Answer the question.”

“And I can’t say that I would want to know whether I win the Cup.”

“Yes, other than that.”

“I guess… I guess I would want to know, like, am I happy?”

Now I wanna go over those questions with someone.

I like how there is still some Shane panic and also how Ilya is still somewhat lying to himself. For a change this felt just so in character and that was refreshing. Yea.

The Most Adulty Adult Around [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot]

The Most Adulty Adult Around byy ellis (ellabellachicketychella)

“He’s the most adulty,” Bee hisses. 

Shane squints at the group. “What have you done?” 

“Nothing!” Young squeaks which immediately means they have done something. 

“Uhm, just say hypothetically your washing machine is flooding and you try to open it to drain it, suddenly your entire laundry is flooding.” 

“Is the drain hose connected properly?” 

“Don’t look at me!” Arty whines. “Do I look like I know how to fix a drain hose? I don’t— stop looking at me!”

or, five times shane is contacted by the rookies for adulting and one time he accidentally gives wildly incorrect advice

I feel like I should figure out who is GEEK and why everyone credits them. But. Like. Im probably too lazy to get that deep into this fandom. And maybe Im too old to go that deep. Idk.

Anyways. This is part of a bigger series and its not 100% mandatory for you to read all the other parts of that series for this to make sense. Some little details may sound weird but this is fine as a stand alone. 

It kinda also feels like people seem to forget about how these guys are like 18 or 19 or 20. So really young and still figuring the shit out. So it makes sense for them to have a frat house and being totally clueless about a lot of things. Also. There was this one hockey player who played Fortnite (I think?) like a lot while being a professional NHL player. It even affected his gameplay for some degree and when he finally stopped or maybe just wasnt gaming so much he started to be a better hockey player. Or something like that. Ugh. Now I have to google the guy. Shit. Patrick Laine! Yep. It was some British football player who even needed professional help for gaming, but thats completly different story. And please, do not ask how I have this useless information in my head.

Anyways. Back to the fic. Sometimes people forget that players are also young guys who are filthy rich and they are on their own. And all of that could just mean utter chaos. Some of that chaos is also understanding how much rich people can be separeted from the real world and everyday things.

So this is another thing I need to get lost to and read a lot more fics about. Seriously. Fuck life. Who needs a life anyway? 

They don't know about us [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot]

They don't know about us by avid_reader64

When in the 20/21 season Shane is forced to come out, Ilya is not far behind him.

Twitter sees this as a chance to get the two rivals together, with help from their teammates.

Except they’re already in a relationship, unbeknownst to everyone.

(Hayden already knows like in the original timeline)

No one is able to not ship these two. Yeah. Fics like these just make me more impatient to wait for the Unrivalred book, like we need to know how the rest of the world reacts and what kind of shitstorm there is. And they need to win the Stanley Cup for Centaurs, yep. So much to wait for.

In the mean time we just have to enjoy all these awseome fics and try to be patient. Yea. Half of that is easy and half is torture. Fuck. 

Famed Hollanov Fic Writer, Luca Haas [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot]

Famed Hollanov Fic Writer, Luca Haas by ellis (ellabellachicketychella)

Luca Haas looks Ilya Rozanov in the eye. Ilya Rozanov, recently appointed captain of The Ottawa Centaurs. Ilya Rozanov, who Luca has done unspeakable things to on Archive of Our Own.

He gulps. His phone is weighing heavy in his back pocket, his phone which has been logged into an Archive of Our Own account for years. An account which features some… disgustingly detailed smut about the man currently shaking his hand.

or, luca haas wrote a very popular hollanov fic when he was a teenager... he spends the first year of his professional hockey career in fear

First of all, the respect for all that formating. Like seriosly, I dont even wanna think how much time that is gonna take and how pain in the ass it must be. There is a reason why I dropped out of computer science studies in Uni, and yea, coding was a huge factor in it. The only factor actually. I hate it in every form and style and whatnot. Its the worst. 

The fic itself. I love the fanon how Luca is the biggest Hollanov fan and Tumblr fanboy. I may have to actually go and get lost in that tag, because all these things are pure gold.

Other  thing is Luca figuring out Hollanov is real and having the most normal, adult reaction to it. Ha. The best. But to be honest, everything here is the best. Over dramatic a little, full of maybe teenager thingies and whatnot. Still the absolut best.

And I need to go and read this again. 

Ilya is so nice [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot]

Ilya is so nice by IfYouSeekEuge

Shane Hollander is absolutely, completely fucked.

Sharing an aparment through college is normal, what is not normal is Ilya Rozanov, an infuriatingly affectionate roommate who seems determined to take care of him in every possible way.

The problem? Ilya Rozanov is just nice, so fucking nice

Or, Omega Shane remains oblivious to Alpha Ilya attempts to court him.

Shane and social clues. Can I just like... I dont know? Just super relate to Shane's struggles or something? 

I just love these kinds of fics where Shane a little bit lost but gets there in the end. Yea. These are sad and makes me cry. But. I dont think thats a bad thing?

BOGO [Game Changers, Hollanov, David Hollander/Yuna Hollander]

BOGO by princepixel

A fiery plane crash claims Ilya Rozanov’s life in January. By April, Shane Hollander is dead of a broken heart. The truth dies with them.

Yuna Hollander will do anything to get her son back, including hiring a shady shaman to resurrect him. There’s just one complication — Shane isn’t coming back alone.

Now there are codependent (not)zombies in her house wearing Ilya and Shane’s faces. When they inexplicably act more like a married couple than the bitter rivals she expected, Yuna is convinced that they came back wrong.

It’s easier than admitting she never understood them from the start.

I would love to know how people come up with these ideas? Like how, what, when, seriously.

Yea. These two idiots are it for each other, there is literally no one else that can match their freak, intensity, whatever. They are made for each other in every single way. And here they are basically sharing one soul. How that works for them? Really good when you add a little bit magic to the mix.

Still I like the zombie idea without actual zombies in the mix. There is only one thing I didn't really get, but hys, we can just ignore it and pretend that it makes sense. Well, it makes as much sense as everything else here.

And there is a sequel. Of course, finally a time where I want to read more and there actually is more to this. 

Heal Deal is the story from Shane's point of view. And adds more about how it felt to be dead and be risen from that. And also how Ilya fits in the mix. There is more porn and more feelings and more just stupid possesive shit where these two need to share skin and still they cannot be close enough to each other.

It all just makes so much sense.  

And then if we would just get it all from Ilya's point of view it would be cherry on top. But Im not that greedy. I can be more than happy with these two.  

the lake house [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot, nc-17]

the lake house by ratherunnecessary

The following weekend, interrupting an argument about saving versus spending, Kip said for the first time, “Why do I lowkey feel like you guys are perfect for each other?”

There was a brief silence at the dinner table. Then Hollander started laughing. With his full chest, which Ilya had never heard. Ilya started laughing, too, and then everyone else joined in. “Good one,” Ilya said.

This is the dream. Having a place to hang out with friends, having just the perfect friend group where this is possibly. Just. This is basically everything I have always dreamed off. Which is why I maybe cried through this.

Maybe they are all rich and succesfull. And maybe they have pretty much the perfect life. This is still something to dream about and have as a goal in life. Probably never gonna happen, but who knows. 

one sunday morning [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot, nc-17]

one sunday morning by somnatic

At that moment, Ilya knew he was hallucinating, and that he’d hit his head a lot harder than he thought.

Because here was Shane fucking Hollander— in his fucking kitchen, wearing his fucking clothes. He was making borscht.

“What the fuck,” Ilya croaked.

(Ilya takes a rough hit. Shane is there to take care of him.)

Somehthing super disgustingly cute. Yeah. 

my best friend's new best friend [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot]

my best friend's new best friend by LiarsandThieves22

Roz couldn’t take three hours off when he was in Boston to see Cliff, but somehow managed to kick off a whole ass friendship with his worst enemy when the guy lived two hours away? Make that make sense! As far as Cliff knew, Hollander didn’t even like any of the things that Roz liked – partying or clubbing or drinking. What did Hollander have that Cliff didn’t? Besides a second Cup? And several MVP awards? And multiple broken records?

Oh god. Had Roz picked Hollander as his new best friend because he was better than Cliff at hockey?

--

Cliff is very proud to be Ilya Rozanov's best friend (or at least his best male friend). But then Ilya moves to Ottawa, dodges Cliff's attempts to hang out and, oh yeah, suddenly announces a close friendship with a guy he's hated for most of a decade. This would be much simpler to deal with if Cliff had any idea how to talk to Roz about feelings. Or how to talk about feelings at all.

I love Cliff and I love all the fics where Cliff is just Ilya's best friend and there for him. Just. All of them are pure gold. 

Cliff is just a flawed character in the fics, but his learning curve and the whole character arch is always they best and most revarding. He learns and he tries to be there, even when he is not always sure what he is doing and how he is doing stuff. But his heart is made of gold. He is part of the found family Ilya needs in life. 

 We just need more Cliff. Thats it.  

one juice for my very very real husband, please [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot]

one juice for my very very real husband, please by TheHeartWantsWhatTheHeartWants

The Russian man read his phone. "Can I get berry kefir smoothie in large cup but keep the juice small, only with more ice. But he wants to know if melting ice will separate kefir within twenty-five minutes, because if it does, he does not want that. Then he will get Almond Butter and Banana Smoothie with full scoop of hemp seed, but only half almond butter, and add…”

He must have noticed now that Dorian was no longer typing, “Is there issue?”

Dorian shrugged. “No. I’m just waiting for you to actually be serious about what your 'Husband' wants.”

The man scoffed, “I think you should just make fifty-dollar smoothie for my husband, Smoothie for my very real husband, by the way. Very real husband, so I do not know what finger bunnies are for.” He wiped his nose, taking a breath, “Do you know who I am?”

or

Dorian works in a smoothie shop, and if there's one thing he hates more than his job, it's people who order ridiculously complicated smoothies and then pretend they're for someone else.

Then a Russian man walks in and does exactly that.

What follows is a week-long battle of Ilya trying to convince a smoothie shop employee that his very real husband is, in fact, real.

This is that weird deep end that I have been looking for. Just pure fun crack. Basically everything you need to make your day better. Yep.

Have fun kids ! 

#DontYouDareFuckingFreeMe [Game Changers, Hollanov]

#DontYouDareFuckingFreeMe by Airuna 

“We do not say anything about the Hollander situation,” LeClaire tells them even though it sounds like he’s already resigned to what he knows is going to happen.

After all, Roz gets extremely mad whenever it’s brought up. Not that Cliff can blame him, he’s pretty sure that Roz liked Hollander before this (wouldn’t chirp him half as much if he didn’t). Finding out that he’s such a bastard must sting.

Not to mention that Roz does not mess around with people that disrespect girls. Or women. Or kids. Or dogs. Or the elderly (excluding Scott Hunter). Or really anyone, if it’s for petty stupid reasons.

“Of course,” Cliff agrees for both of them since Roz is still too busy texting someone.

It’s apparently not good enough for LeClaire because he asks, “Roz?”

“Just one second,” he answers without raising his eyes from his phone or stopping his typing. “Need to get my Jane to agree with something. She’s very stubborn.”

Or. My take on the 'their text leak and now everybody thinks that Shane is an abusive bastard' premise. Featuring Ilya giving a presser, Marly realizing in real time who 'Jane' is and the internet reacting to the craziness. 

Im bored and for some reason this was open in my browser. I cant even really remember opening this or what draw me into this. And I didnt even read the summary before I started to read. Sooo. Yea, I did pretty great there.

The only thing missing is what happens after this and what Cliff and Ilya will talk. Or more like, how Cliff will support Ilya. We all now that he will be the bestest friend ever, but still. I need more. Yea, I know, there is pattern here.

But mostly this is half twitter (x?) fic and half just Ilya being a mence. So basic monday in this fandom. Yepyepyep.

 

Shall We Talk About Home? [Game Changers, Hollanov]

Shall We Talk About Home? by OtherWaysHome  

“My boyfriend thinks I’m an idiot,” Ilya says. "Well, not really but a bit, maybe.”

“Your boyfriend?” Sandra, the queer studies professor sits down, hard.

“Yes, he thinks it is not smart to say faggot in the locker room when you are locked in the closet and Russia has the keys.”

Ilya had been talking about himself when he’d said it. Making a joke. Sailing a little close to the wind, sick of listening to the background hum of homophobic bullshit. But someone had been filming. The video went viral. The Raiders panicked under the terrible PR. Now he was here.

Sent to Queer Studies 101 to appease twitter. Because he’d been cancelled. For being a homophobe. If was fucking ridiculous.

He turns to the professor. “So, can you help me take on Putin and NHL at same time or I need more advanced class for this?”

Plus Chapter 2 – Social media chapter. Once they've been outed, Ilya gets to demand an apology from twitter.

Im trying to get lost in this fandom. Like really lost, that kind of lost where you find all the weird stuff but good stuff that other people miss. And its kind of really hard, there is just so much good stuf. 

But I think this is a good start. This is so left field and something new, different. Everything. But still fun and now I wanna take a course in queer studies. Where can I do that? Seriously. 

But yeah. I need more. Just more. Love the ending, with Shane outing Ilya as a huge nerd who love the course. Yep. The best. The Putin part was also nice, niche detail. Thank you.  

PWP Oneshots 19 [Game Changers, F1, TeenWolf]

Here we go again ♥ Have fun kids !

Captain’s Order by ThePromptWasntThisLong (shredded_potato) 
[Hollanov]

Who’s the freak stealing Ilya Rozanov’s game-worn jerseys?’ 

A series of targeted thefts turns into a league-wide mystery. The entire league is obsessed. Ilya is unconcerned. And Shane… 

Shane is locking himself in empty bathrooms, sniffing and stroking himself raw over the stolen fabric like a total pervert. 

He thinks it’s a secret. Ilya knows better.

soft sheets by afterdark (passengerprincipessa) 

[LandOscar]

It’s unreal what Lando will sleep through.

golden, like daylight by nonamesplz 
[Hollanov]

What I imagine their first time without a condom was like. Because we've all thought about it. 

money shot by cutshot

[Hollanov] 

When he looks up to check if anyone noticed, Hayden has put his phone away and his eyes are trained on them, arms crossed together. 

Hayden is still watching them, and Shane feels his blood turn into ice-sludge when he realises that Ilya is pushing inside him steadily enough that anyone can see how their hips move into each other. Shane stares back. Hayden’s eyes trail down from his face to where Ilya’s hand is visibly on Shane’s waist under the blanket, and—Shane tightens up enough for Ilya to double over and muffle a groan into his neck. 

And Hayden’s eyes are still on them. 

A beat, then two, and a wicked look takes over his face before he mouths: Having fun? 

Shane is horny. Ilya provides the perfect solution. Hayden is just here for the show.

81-24-21 by maplesalad 
[Hunter/Hollander/Rozanov]

Ilya tucked his smile against Shane’s neck and brought his hand down Shane’s front. “He used to be so boring,” he said to Hunter. “Would not let me fuck him because you were next door.” 

Shane groaned. “You’re such an asshole—that was a long time ago,” he said. “I was trying to be discreet.” 

“Yes, and now look at you,” Ilya said. “Go suck Hunter’s dick.”

Derek's Condition by SinQueen69 
[Sterek]

Stiles agreed to Derek’s terms when he moved in, not realizing at the time how much his life would change. 

Sweet & Spicy Bingo Square: Wet & Messy 

Promises never made [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot]

Promises never made by ibumblebee 

If this is what Hollander is willing to give him, he will take it. It won’t be enough, not by a long shot, but if this is the little part of him he is allowed to have, by God he will take it. 

OR, Shane messages Ilya a few days after the tuna melt scene. Ilya is trying to not scare him away again. He will restrain himself. He will take what Shane gives him and never ask for more. Just please, he can’t see him walk out of his life again.

I knew I was gonna cry and I still read this. And reallt loved every single word of this. Yes. It broke me, but in a really, really good way.  

Pour Decisions [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot]

Pour Decisions by hermacology 

Hayden Pike and his group chat of coworkers are pretty sure their new manager Shane has a parasocial obsession with a professional hockey player. 

He talks about him constantly, knows everything about him, watches every game, and even has candid photos of him that are definitely not available through conventional sources. So naturally, they decide to intervene to find him a man who actually knows he exists. 

Shane, for his part, has no idea what they're talking about.

Right now Im just really surprised I can still find good fics that I have not read. Like almost every day I can find something good and new in this fandom. In every other fandom I would be bored and read all the good stuff already. But not here. 

It even sounds better when I say that there is a good sequel (prequel?) to this fic. And I really liked it. 

Fuck. Like. Yea. 

I do want more Svetlana lore in here somewhere. But other than that, this is perfect. Hayden is perfect. The sequel (or whatever) makes this even better. And fuck. Yea. 

Baby, Bend Over [Game Changers, Hollanov]

Baby, Bend Over by TemporaryAltars 

Shane is convinced that Ilya Rozanov—captain of the Boston Bears and Shane’s newest student—hates him. 

Ilya joined Shane's yoga class specifically to get closer to the hot instructor, but every attempt at flirting only seems to make things worse. 

Neither of them has any idea the other is completely in love with them.

I hate this fandom for one reason and one reason only (okay I probs could find more reasons but Im lazy). I can always see myself in Shane, in one or another. I can understand him way too well, can relate to him and so on. Which is a first for me. Seriously. 

Maybe thats also the reason why I keep reading these fics and loving them so much. Mostly Im just over the series and cant be bothered to rewatch or reread the books. But the fics. 

Yea. This one just hit me the right way. No clue even why. But yea. I should be working and being a functional adult, instead Im reading these two fuckers fall in love again and again. 

Barbe-Q&A [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot]

Barbe-Q&A by prailock 

In their first summer after being outed, Shane finally accepts that invite to Bood's backyard barbecue. It could have been a relaxing night. But Ilya's brought vodka. And the Centaurs brought questions. Might as well rip off the band aid before he signs with Ottawa.  Or How many shots is it worth to know what your Captain likes in bed?

I had my doubts because of Reddit (yea where else could I find good fics nowdays if not from Reddit?). I dont like the recommends over there, or maybe I like about 25% of them. Maybe 30%. But I always try to give them an opportunity and keep an open mind for them. Still. Yeah. Im picky. 

ANYWAYS. This just got better and better the further I got. Usually its the other way around. Not this time. Seriously. So goooood.  

the boy who blocked his own shot [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot]

the boy who blocked his own shot by alasse

Ilya’s dad dies right before the 2017 All-Star Game, so he never learns that Shane and Rose broke up. While he’s in Russia, a threat from his brother makes him ask Svetlana for help and marry her so he can get a US green card—it’s meant to be a discreet, simple thing, but the Boston tabloids get a hold of it and then it’s all over social media. Three months later, Shane Hollander holds a press conference to share two things: he's leaving Montreal to play for the Ottawa Centaurs, and he's gay.

This is way too short. I need more and deeper and I need to know what happens next. Okay. I need to know what actually happened in those four or something years. I need details and longer fics. 

What I dont need is to cry and destroy my emotional balance every day. Fuck fanfics. Fuck this fandom. Fuck everything about this hyperfocus. Seriously.