When Buds Break [Harry Potter, Drarry, nc-17, oneshot]

When Buds Break by Andithiel 

Harry and Draco agreed that they’d keep on secretly (but exclusively) fucking each other as long as no one caught any feelings. Which is working just fine, really. The problem isn’t only that Harry would like to be allowed to stay the night occasionally. No, the real problem is that Draco has started coughing up flowers. 

I'm not telling you how many Hanahaki disease fics I have read recently. No way in hell. (By the way, when will it need its own tag?)

There seems to just be one thing in common in all of the fics. It's always Draco who gets sick. I only remember one fic where it was Harry, and that was really short compared to the rest. And Im not even sure if I would like to read a fic where Harry gets sick. Somehow, this just has to be Draco's pov to make it good. I don't even know why. 

But all in all. These are the reasons why I keep crying every day. Maybe I am just a glutton for punishment? Or something. Really something.

all the time in the world [Harry Potter, Drarry, oneshot]

all the time in the world by MoreSonorous 

Draco Malfoy is dying. Harry Potter is both the cause and the cure. 

I'm stuck with this idea about what about the life after. The possible break-up, or the guilt about being together, or forcing them to be together because otherwise Draco will die. Basically, there is always this doom and gloom in their relationship after Draco gets better. 

Yea. Okay. Maybe the idea is not so bad, when you think about it. They could both fall out of love and that way, Draco wouldn't get sick again. Or maybe this is somehow linked to soulmates, and the one can't be without the other. Or something like that. 

 Those were literally the only things I could think about when I was reading this. Because this is another one of those fics that I have read more than once, so I can waste some of the story thinking about everything else. And all of that is there to say, this is good, really good. And I will read this a third time at some point. Not right now, because I have three other fics open and I want to finish them first.

So if anyone knows a fic that even touches that whole subject, please link and share. I would love to read it next. And, if I wasn't somehow super clear about this, this is another Hanahaki disease fic. Yea.  

 

Garden of You [Harry Potter, Drarry, oneshot]

Garden of You by thoracicduck (aproposofeverything) 

Draco has Hanahaki Disease, and he would rather die than admit that he's liked his childhood nemesis all along (for reasons he does not expect); Harry warms up slowly to his unusual friend with a mysterious disease that doesn't get better. 

 A story of two men reopening old wounds and seeking comfort in each other's presence, wherein they find common ground in unspoken grief.

I have read this twice now and wouldnt say no to a third time. 

Draco is living in remorse and is just ready to die. Of course Harry interviews and tries to save him. No one knows anything but Draco and he is content with that. 

But all of this just made me cry. There really werent that many parts where I wasnt crying. So yea. This is sad, with semi happy ending. Okay. The ending is promising happy times but doesnt really go that far. 

And this is really worth the read. Just be ready to cry. Yea. 

Pull My Hair a Little Harder Please [Harry Potter, Drarry, multichapter]

Pull My Hair a Little Harder Please by batondecannelle

“Potter,” he says. 

Harry’s knees feel weak. He stumbles a few feet closer to the other boy and then stops. His chest feels tight, and his vision is swimming, and he doesn’t know how to ask for what he desperately needs. 

“I’m, I’m—” he stammers, his hands shaking. 

Draco looks around them at the empty library, and then back at Harry. “Come here,” he says. 

-- 

Harry was excited to come back for one more year of Hogwarts. One last year where there’s nothing to worry about, no basilisks or dementors or psychotic murderers. 

So why does he keep having panic attacks, and why is it always Draco Malfoy finding him right in the middle of one? 

It sounds really weird that there is not that many fics about mental health in Potter fandom. Like.  You have a world where has been a war with children being the most importat characters. And people just keep writing like none of that really happened or matters. Don't get me wrong, I love those fics too, but Im kind of just waiting more of these kinds of fics? If that makes any sense.

Okay. This is still not a way to deal with mental health and depression and PTSD. But in fiction, this is okay and fine. All that other stuff on the other hand, how out of it Harry was without even understanding it. How it just got worse and worse. How he didn't have any tools to help himself or understand what was going. Those are the parts I liked about this. This felt real, like he really was lost and everything had just gone to shits. 

Draco was left as a little bit mysterious. I liked that. I liked how it was all about Harry surviving and trying to understand. Everything else was just background, even if it helped. But nothing was really clear or linear in here, it was just how Harry felt everything. Mushy, dark, hopeless, sad, lost.  

growing irises (in the sunshine) [Harry Potter, Drarry, nc-17, oneshot]

growing irises (in the sunshine) by inkedquill 

Draco Malfoy is very good at being Harry Potter’s friend, and especially so at pretending he hasn’t been in love with him since long before. 

Too bad his eyes didn’t seem to get the memo. 

Or alternatively, Draco is made aware of the fact that his pupils visibly dilate whenever Harry is around, apparently an irrepressible sign of attraction or arousal. He freaks out.

Almost 20k words of idiots being in love. Fucking hell. Am I so messed up that this is really what I love to read the most? Like fucking hell. There is something seriously wrong with me (and all those people who love to write this shit, still kudos to all of you, I love you and all the hard work you do).

I wish I had something else to say. But thats the whole plot and its just so good and well written that there is nothing else to add. Enjoy!

I'll never be your chosen one [Harry Potter, Drarry, oneshot, nc-17]

I'll never be your chosen one by Andithiel 

Draco doesn't know what exactly he’s doing with Potter, he doesn't know how their unspoken agreement even started, and doesn't know where it will end. The only thing he knows is: he's not in love. 

Im not crying, you are crying. 

Honestly, it seems like Im back to promoting porn. There is a plot and in a way this is more plot than porn. But it feels like pure filth. You can take that as any way you really want.

 The main point is. Draco is not in love. 

The Other Blond at Number Four [Harry Potter, Drarry, nc-17, oneshot]

The Other Blond at Number Four by syringe  

Dudley shouldn't be surprised that it's Malfoy, but he can't help the bewilderment that overwhelms him when he sees that mean little face screwed up in pleasure, staring up at his cousin with starry eyed adoration. 

Dudley finds out about a terrifying blonde freak straight from the dark side (!) shacking up with his cousin right here in his home. Naturally, he goes snooping...

Now I want to read more of Dudley and Malfoy's interactions. Shit. 

But the thing. Both of them were so on point with their personalities and actions. Just perfect.