In Close Quarters [Game Changers, Hollanov, nc-17]

In Close Quarters by Anonymous 

Shane slips through his front door and back into his quiet apartment. He leans back against the door and takes a steadying breath in his dark apartment. After a moment, the music next door turns off and Shane is left with only the pounding of his own heartbeat in his ears. 

He closes his eyes and tries not to think about Rozanov or the way Shane’s entire body lit up like a live wire when he said in that low, accented voice, only if you ask nicely. He’s hard in his penguin print pajama pants and now he’s going to have to jerk off and shower before he can sleep. While trying not to think about his asshole neighbor. 

This is bad. This is very bad. 

In which Shane Hollander's new next door neighbor is a menace who always seems to answer the door shirtless. 

I have this feeling like I havent finished reading this yet. But no idea why. Because I have closed the tab on my phone and I can remember the whole thing, just not excatly how it ends. But this was good and I couldnt stop reading, so why I cant remember how this ends? 

The vibes I got from this in the beginning were so off. This was basically everything else than I thought it would be. Maybe the problem is in me or not. But its not a bad thing, I liked this even more because of it. So all good there.

 Yeaaa. 

A Product of Good Breeding [Harry Potter, Dramione, Hermione/Lucius, multichapter, nc-17]

A Product of Good Breeding by charingfae 

“How…scintillating.” 

Hermione gripped her fork and knife more tightly. “Yes, it is rather fascinating, Lucius.” Draco twitched in his chair when she referred to his father by name. Was he really that disturbed by it? What did he think she would call him? Mr. Malfoy? Or— 

Actually… -- 

Or, Hermione seeks an anonymous sperm donor to father her child. But as contract negotiations grow a lot more...personal, she quickly finds herself in over her head. 

I have read this twice now. Why? I dont know. This has a lot of things I dont like to read about but something just pulls me towards this. Weird.

But. This is not as bad as the tags may imply. Its not some cute, innocent fic, but its not like super hardcore either. Something between there. And there is actually a pretty great plot there somewhere and a lot of feelings. Yep. 

Policy Change [Game Changers, Hollanov, multichapter, nc-17]

Policy Change by josie_ides (josephides) 

Four months post Sochi, four months of being ghosted by Ilya Rozanov, the Metros are bought by Petrov 7, a multi-national corporation headed up by Mikhail Petrov, an openly out billionaire who has plans to transform the MLH, starting with the Metros. 

I hate how I find so many good WIP fanfics and then I have to wait for all those zillion chapters to be written and published. I fucking hate. Its the worst. And then this has been one of them too. 

But the thing here is, is how I really love Shane's autism here. You can pretty much feel it. How he is little bit lost sometimes and how some things are just so far away and he doesnt care, notice, anything. He just experiences these things that some other people would just know whats happening around them. I really love this about this fic.

One other thing is how Shane is finding himself and learning to understand things around him. This is such a Shane centric fic that is definetly one of my favorites. This just has all the feels and reasons and it has been build so perfectly. Its just perfect. Seriously. 

Unbelievers [One Direction, Larry, multichapter, nc-17]

Unbelievers by isthatyoularry 

It’s Louis’ senior year, and he’s dead set on doing it right. However, along with his pair of cleats, a healthy dose of sarcasm and his ridiculous best friend, he’s also got a complicated family, a terrifyingly uncertain future, and a mortal enemy making his life just that much worse. Mortal enemies “with benefits” was not exactly the plan. 

Or: The one where Louis and Harry definitely aren’t friends, and football is everything.

I was 100% sure I had read this before. But in the end, when I was about to leave kudos, I hadnt done that before. So. Maybe I hadnt read this before.

There is also a sequel to this, but I havent gotten that far yet. Only used a whole day to read this and get really hooked. Like. This gave me so good book vibes, like this could be an actual published book. Which is so weird. But a good thing, because I have been searching MM romance books with football players in them recently (and let me tell you, I have yet to find a single one that I actually like).

Anyways. There is actually a lot going on here for Louis and he is just trying to survive to the next day. I loved how some small things didnt get any conclusion until the end and how well those things hold there. This didnt let me down at any point in the story, which is a huge thing for me. 

Just. I am so glad I clicked this super random link somewhere and ended reading this. Yea. 

Mint and Candied Oranges [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot, nc-17]

Mint and Candied Oranges by ThePromptWasntThisLong (shredded_potato) 

Three times Shane fucked himself on his foster father’s knot while he slept, and one time Ilya was awake for it. 

The rules of their foster relationship were simple: don't ask about the blood, don't touch the guns, and definitely don't ride your alpha father's cock while he's blackout drunk. 

Shane is very bad at following rules.

What the actual fuck. 

Still. Way too good. Way, way, way too good.

river lead me home [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot, nc-17]

river lead me home by heartfangs (ittybittyjules)

Yuna pours him a glass of ice cold homemade lemonade without asking and hands it to him across the kitchen island, then announces, “Just as a heads up, me and David will leave for Japan over the weekend. My cousin invited us to spend the summer there at her lake house, and we could hardly say no to that. I will leave you a pair of keys so that you can still come and go.” 

Wide-eyed, Ilya blinks at her. “Um?” 

“You won’t be all alone,” says Yuna, immediately. “We have a son. Shane?” 

or: Ilya has been asked to fix up the Hollander house over summer. Shane Hollander, the elusive son of the family, returns to town after thirteen years to watch over said house. The next six weeks are going to be incredibly interesting. 

Why oneshots are now days 30 000 words long? Like yeah, Ill still read it, but like seriously. Why?

This could have been way, way more angsty, but wasn't. And I liked how easy, light, romantic this was. Just some nice, good reading for lazy Sunday (I know, I know Im posting this on monday but I scheduled this to future). 

The only thing I missed was more Shane's parents and their scheming. Or is it just Yuna's scheming? Anyways. I love how in every fic they care about Shane, his happiness and his life. If there is one thing that makes me cry every single time, its their never ending love and how they show it to Shane. Maybe its overbearing in times and I would hate it sometimes if it was my parents. But. I can still appreciate it and love it in every single fics. And then they show it to Ilya too, which just makes everything so much better. 

One best part here was also Ilya's depression and how it was mentioned. It was there, it was part of everything, but it didnt take over. I really liked that. It is, after all, a really big part of Ilya.

Mental health matters and all that. 

Salve [Game Changers, Hollanov, nc-17]

Salve by AC91  

Ilya Rozanov was starting over. His mother was long dead, his father had finally passed, and his brother didn’t want him around anymore. Moscow was nothing but dead bodies and fading memories and scars that just wouldn’t heal. Enter Shane Hollander. 
*Laceration, from Ilya’s POV 

I loved the prequel? The one from Shane's POV? The other one. And I went into this thinking this would break me, destroy me and I would spend the whole fic crying. But this was not as hearbreaking as I first thought. Which is probably a good thing for my mental health.

To be honest, my favorite part of this was Ilya's backgroud. His growing up, his suicidal thoughts, his way of surviving. Everything that made him who he is. All those reasons how he ended up to Montrea, ended up to the hockey team and made all those friends. I also loved how Ilya reads Shane in here and tries to understand him, not always being correct but thats mostly down him not uderstanding his own worth. 

Just. This is as good as the prequel, maybe some parts were even better. Still solid and just good. 

the heart is hard to translate [Game Changers, Hollanov, nc-17]

the heart is hard to translate by catknives 

Shane is twelve when he realizes he can understand Russian. 

Or, in a world where you can understand whatever language(s) your soulmate speaks, it takes Shane and Ilya an embarrassing amount of time to realize they’re soulmates.

I came across the sequel to this and was really surprised I hadnt blogged about it yet. Then I realised I havent blogged about this either. I have read this like back in January when I had this weird obsession with soulmate fics. But some reason I couldnt find this here.

So. Here we go. The sequel is it has a language of its own  

Anyways. I love the idea of understanding each others languages. I also love how there could be problems with it and making the whole learning part difficult. One thing I would like to know what happens when they learn more languages and what consist as native language (I know a guy who is fluent in five languages because he moved his whole childhood and there is not one single language that he could say he is native in, sooo yea).

Other than that. This is just two idiots not realizing whats in front of them. Yep. Just lovely every day fic in other words. Just really, really, really good and I have read this twice already. 

Fall in love with anyone [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot, nc-17]

Fall in love with anyone by sistercacao

“If a crystal ball could tell you the truth about yourself, your life, the future or anything else, what would you want to know?” Quickly, Ilya adds, “Don’t say that you want to know if you win the Cup.”

“Why not? What if that’s my answer?”

“Is so boring, Hollander. Of course you want to know this. But Ilya Rozanov and Boston Raiders exist in this world, so crystal ball says, so sad, but no.”

“Fuck off. What are these questions even for, anyway? Are you interviewing me for something? Wouldn’t you have to, like, tell me if you were?”

Ilya is quick to assure Hollander before his paranoia takes him right out of this phone call. “It is not for interview, Hollander. I am just wondering. Answer the question.”

“And I can’t say that I would want to know whether I win the Cup.”

“Yes, other than that.”

“I guess… I guess I would want to know, like, am I happy?”

Now I wanna go over those questions with someone.

I like how there is still some Shane panic and also how Ilya is still somewhat lying to himself. For a change this felt just so in character and that was refreshing. Yea.

hollanov from the outside [Game Changers, Hollanov, series]

hollanov from the outside by lisa6

There was no summary for the series itself. But basically this is just how everyone else finds out about Hollanov and how they love these two.  

I liked the Hollander one. The whole where they come to the conclusion about Shane maybe being gay and how subtle it was and how long it took them to actually come up with it. And how Shane was just being a little bit too focused on hockey.

The Svetlana one just made me fall in love with her all over again. It touched deep and made so much sense.

Hayden is always Hayden and Im still not finished with the Rose one. But those two are just perfect fics too.

I really tought about blogging about everyone separetly, but I would just be repeating myself and they would just be identical and refering other posts so this is easier, neatier and leaves me more room to blog about more awesome fics. Yep.

So. Have fun kids! 

the lake house [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot, nc-17]

the lake house by ratherunnecessary

The following weekend, interrupting an argument about saving versus spending, Kip said for the first time, “Why do I lowkey feel like you guys are perfect for each other?”

There was a brief silence at the dinner table. Then Hollander started laughing. With his full chest, which Ilya had never heard. Ilya started laughing, too, and then everyone else joined in. “Good one,” Ilya said.

This is the dream. Having a place to hang out with friends, having just the perfect friend group where this is possibly. Just. This is basically everything I have always dreamed off. Which is why I maybe cried through this.

Maybe they are all rich and succesfull. And maybe they have pretty much the perfect life. This is still something to dream about and have as a goal in life. Probably never gonna happen, but who knows. 

one sunday morning [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot, nc-17]

one sunday morning by somnatic

At that moment, Ilya knew he was hallucinating, and that he’d hit his head a lot harder than he thought.

Because here was Shane fucking Hollander— in his fucking kitchen, wearing his fucking clothes. He was making borscht.

“What the fuck,” Ilya croaked.

(Ilya takes a rough hit. Shane is there to take care of him.)

Somehthing super disgustingly cute. Yeah. 

Tubes of Neon Light, Refracted [Game Changers, Hollanov, nc-17]

Tubes of Neon Light, Refracted by bluerosebouquet  

His entire body felt tense as the door was pushed open. He trained his eyes on the floor, monologuing before he could stop himself, 

“Just so you know, my buddies paid for this dance for me and I’m sure you’re very nice and very pretty and good at what you do but I’m actually gay so you can just- Do what you need to do but I don’t want you to be offended because I’m not as into this as you’re probably…usually…used to…” 

He trailed away as he looked up, and met the eyes of the very tall, very broad, very handsome man leaning against the doorframe.  

They stared at each other, and Shane blinked, struck dumb. 

Or, the night of JJ's bachelor party, Shane is forced into a lap dance he very much does not want. Until he does, and everything changes.

This is not even that sad. But I was still crying almost straight from the beginning. Maybe this hit some a really sore spot somewhere deep in me. Probably. 

Or maybe I see a little bit too much of myself in Shane and cannot not be normal about anything. Something. 

Count the Cost [Harry Potter, Drarry, Harry/Draco/Theodore, oneshot, nc-17]

Count the Cost by PricklyCauldron 

Harry doesn't want a soulmate and he especially doesn't want his soulmate to be Draco Malfoy. It's unfortunate that Draco will die if they don't complete their soulbond, but there isn't anything Harry can do about it besides sacrifice himself, and he just can't bear to do that anymore, especially for someone he doesn't even like. 

Harry wouldn't say he's jealous when he starts seeing Draco and Nott together, but maybe his feelings are a little more complicated than he cares to admit... 

This didnt go the way I thought. It was kind of weirder but at the same time better. Or maybe this was pure porn and there was just an excistensial crisis in there somewhere.

I am not even sure what I liked the best in here. I just liked the fic, the idea, the execution and how it was left kind of open. No real ending, happy or sad. Its just life, and even when life makes sense, it can still be messy. Yea. All that. 

Spolia Victoris [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot, nc-17]

Spolia Victoris by OpalApparition 

“Does the Dominus enjoy serving a slave?” Ilya murmured. 

Shane looked up at him through dark lashes. His mouth was a hairsbreadth away from Ilya’s cock, and Ilya could see the exact moment the last of his composure burned out, shedding, the way a snake left its old skin behind, eyes bright and body underneath already new— 

—and instead of answering, Shane licked a stripe up the underside of his shaft, root to tip. 

The law calls Ilya a slave. The mob of Rome calls him their lion, their Gladiator. Senator’s son Shane calls him to his bed. 

Now Shane wants to call him free, but that means owning him first.

Yes. This is AU, just here to scratch my itch. More than it. This is perfect, getting things so deep and sounding right. I have no clue about anything related to Roman Empire and everything in English is just a little bit more unknown for me. 

But like. Ah. Can I have a sequel? I need sequel to everything. Yes. Get me everything awesome to read, thank you. 

professional heartbreaker [Game Changers, Hollanov, nc-17]

professional heartbreaker by yourinsomnia 

Out of all Ilya’s terrible vices, repeatedly hiring the same escort might be the stupidest one he’s ever picked up. 

We still need more AU fics, real AU fics. This fandom seems to label almost everything as an AU. Just like fics that are just a little bit of the canon is easily tagged as an AU. I hate it, but I can somewhat understand it. 

Still. We need more AU fics where Ilya is in a mafia. Yes. More of these awesome stories where he drags Shane to the dark side. Like this one. Shane is pretty, innocent college student, just trying to pay the bills. Ilya on othe hand just cant resist the freckles. 

Thats it. Lovely. Thank you.

Laceration [Game Changers, Hollanov, Nc-17]

Laceration by AC91 

Shane Hollander was perfect; the perfect son, the perfect boyfriend, the perfect friend. He had spent years refining perfection, making sure he was the picture of it. It was second nature after all these years; a suit that didn’t quite fit, but that he’d gotten used to. 

Enter Ilya Rozanov. 

I kinda feel bad but at the same time i kinda dont feel. But like, these two fuckers are meant to each other so feeling bad when they get together is kinda pointless.

And this fic is more about Shane finding himself and the whole journey there. Rose is good and lovely and everything. It just doesnt work so. Yea. I dont know. This is really, really beautifully written and heartbreaking in a lot of ways. And. You are suppose to consentrate to good things. Yea.

black dog [Game Changers, Hollanov, nc-17]

black dog by delagauchetiere 

Ilya is not going to steal Shane Hollander's dog. That would be illegal. And wrong. And someone would probably find out and make Ilya give him back. 

So. Not stealing. 

But there is nothing wrong with giving Chernysh all the pats and treats that he deserves, is there? 

Nothing wrong with encouraging Chernysh to spend more and more time at Ilya's house until he doesn't even remember who Hollander is. 

Because Hollander is stupid and boring and does not deserve a dog as good as Chernysh. No, he doesn't, does he? Because Chernysh is the best boy in the whole world, yes he is.

Fuck. Okay. First of all Ilya's English in here. You can see how it improves and how he gets more comfortable with speaking. I loved that. Maybe the best part of the whole fic.

Second thing is the whole dog thing. I am somewhat sad that I guessed it, but it didn't really matter. It was still good and it didn't ruin the fic for me at all. I was just happy that I was able to pick it up.

Third thing is how I am suppose to be working but nooo, I had to finnish this right now. I may have spent the majority of two work days reading this. Ha. Just dont tell my boss that, he still thinks Im dedicated and hard working and whatnot. In the mean time I read fanfics and pretend like Im working.

Anyways. 

The ending. This is the thing Im still not sure about. Its good, its so damn good. I just had ideas where this fic would be going and I was not so sure if I wanted it to go there. The whole thing still makes sense, its in line with everything and I still love it. Okay. On top of that, all my other feelings about it are kinda mixed. So yea.

Still. This is so fucking worth it. Seriously. Go and read this. Hurry!

(Never) Stop Looking At Me Like That [Game Changers, Hollanov, oneshot, nc-17]

(Never) Stop Looking At Me Like That by heavenlykviss 

Shane is in love with Matt. They're in love and it's fine. It's better than fine really, Shane loves just about everything about Matt and he loves all of Matt's friends. Except for the big tall Russian one that wont stop staring at him like he knows something Shane doesn't. Like he's waiting for Shane to snap. Like he's begging Shane to do something. 

And Shane won’t, obviously. Because Ilya is the type of man to reel you in and the leave you high and dry. Leave you looking for pieces of him in every new person that you meet, leave you looking for signs you didn't just make the whole thing up, like some wild fantasy that was born of monotony. 

Oh, and he fact he has a boyfriend who he loves. A lot. It isn't monotonous. Its love.

Shane can date other people, Ilya can date other people, as long as they end together. So. Maybe no, they cannnot date other people. 

I dont really like stories with cheating in them and this is like really close to that line. Really close. Or maybe it even crosses it. Even when you kinda get the idea that sometimes things are not always working out and this is one of the symptoms of that. Or something.

I really dont know. I dont even care. Whatever. Just. Read and enjoy. Thats it.

Late Bloomer [F1, LandOscar, nc-17, oneshot]

Late Bloomer by Anonymous

Lando had always been a beta, and very happy about that fact, too. No secondary genders, no problems. While all his alpha and omega friends and colleagues around him complained about how sometimes even the most basic things can become difficult, he was just chilling. A happy, ‘normal’ guy. 

But then things started changing. 

This is another really cute, innocent ABO fic. Like. Before LandOscar I didnt even know these things were a thing. I thought all of them were more or less awful and disgusting. But noooo. LandOscar can cure anything for me and get me addicted to these things. So yea. I may be reading ABO fics in other fandoms too.

Anyways. This is a sneak peak into what it means to be an omega and how Lando reacts to it. Mostly it just all about how being an omega is awful and how in love these two are. Yep. Thats it. So all cute and nice and happy and nice. Everything tooth rotting sweet.