He would have told you that, and you wouldn't even have known he was lying.
Its been literally years since I saw this movie last time. The thing was that I loved the movie, I really did and then at some point I just hated the movie. If you have ever seen it, you know what I mean. The first half of it, is fun and something I would love to watch more. But the last bit, fuck that, seriously fuck all that.
The other thing was that I did not understand back then the plot or the politics or anything that was playing in the background. I didn't know how fucked place Poland was (is) for lgtbq people. I still don't. And I would love to just close my eyes and pretend none of it exists. But stuff doesn't work like that.
So here I am, thinking about watching this again and trying to find fics that would make me feel better about the whole movie. It's just that there doesn't seem to be fics that would be just the first 20min of the movie and then made it longer. But there are these little parts about something else and I have to just enjoy the little things I can find.
So in the nuthsell. You want to cry? Watch the movie, read this fic. You want to hate world? Do those two things. You want to find something beautiful? Still the same answer. This is tragic and I love the fic because Aleks is so out of it, he can't process whats happening and what he wants and maybe he is a little bit dead inside. Maybe.
Or maybe I find the perfect that I've been looking for the past forever and I don't have to read sad, beautiful stories anymore. Maybe. We will see. But until then, read this beautiful, tragic oneshot and please, watch the movie.
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