Seventeen [Tokio Hotel, TB, NC-17, suomi]

Seventeen by ich_bin_nicht_ich // Lily 

Well he seemed broken hearted / Something within him / But the moment, that I first laid, eyes on him / All alone on the edge of the seventeen 

Siitä on aikaa ku oon lukenu tän viimeks. Voisin varmaa ihan huoletta sanoa että yli kolme vuotta, mutta koska oon edelleen ihan törkeen huono vuosissa, en sano mitään varmaa. Mutta edelleen tää ficci on jotain upeeta ja raapasee syvältä.

Kaikki alkaa kuinka elämä ei ole ihan niin yksinkertaista, kun sen vois antaa ymmärtää ja kuinka erilaiset kohtalot kohtaa ja muodostaa jotain upeaa, isoa, jotain kuitenkin. Tom on hikke, suosittu hikke, jonka isoisällä on keilahalli, jossa Tom on viettäny koko lapsuutensa. Bill on kaikkea muuta kuin hikke, ennemmin sosiaalinen häirikkö, jonka pitää päästä matikasta läpi.

Periaatteessa tohon vois kiteyttää koko ficin, mikä kyllä sais koko mönjän kuullostamaan tyhmältä, yksinkertaselta, eikä todellakaan sellaselta joka ottaa sisäänsä ja pitää siellä. Mutta Lily on mahtava kirjottaja, ihan oikeesti. Lily on yksiä niitä kirjottajia, joiden takia mä vieläkin uskon, että suomen kielellä on jotain tulevaisuutta ficcimaailmassa, tai no ylipäätään missään.

Jotenkin tässä ei kuitenkaan ole sellasta hienoutta, kun jossain drotsin ficeissä, kun jään vaan ihkuttamaan niitä hienoja sanavalintoja. Tässä tää kieli on niin normaalia, sellasta yleistä suomenkieltä, mutta siitä on jotenkin tullut sellainen sävy, ettei tää oo yhtään takkuilevaa, tökkivää millään tavalla. Tietysti täällä on muutamia sellasia hauskoja sanavalintoja pitämässä sanaston runsaana ja antamassa lisää elävyyttä tekstiin.

Mutta ehkä mä silti eniten tykkään miten näin tylsästä juonesta, tylsässä ympäristössä ja tylsistä tyypeistä  on saatu niin hyvä ficci aikaan. Kuitenkin kaikki nää on niin tavallisia tyyppejä, että varmaan pystyis erottamaan omat kaverit näihin ja omaan maailmaan sijottamana. En mä tiiä miten mä selittäisin tätä ficciä ilman että tästä saa tylsän vaikutelman. Ehkä vaan paras sanoa että Tom opettaa Billiä matikassa ja kiitokseksi opetuksesta ne panee. Joo. Ja niitten suhde aiheuttaa joitakin ongelmia, tietty, kun niitten pitää piilotella asiaa ja tunteet kehittyy.

Ehkä mä jäin odottamaan enemmän sellasta juttua, että ne on kumpikin poikia ja että Tomille koko homma olis jotenkin isompi shokki. En tiedä millä tavalla sen olis tonne saanu, enkä tiiä että millä tavalla sen pitäis olla shokki (tai no, ne asuu pienessä kaupungissa, jossa kaikki tietää toisensa ja vaikka mitä mutta silti). Toisaalta mä kyllä tykkään miten Bill vaan on tollanen, että se tekee mitä se haluaa ja sitten Tom vaan menee mukana ja yrittää pärjätä siinä. Vaikka toisaalta Tom on se joka opettaa Billille matikkaa ja saa Billin jollain tavalla käyttäytymään ficissä vähän inhimillisemmin.

Toi lopetus kuitenkin tuntui hyvältä ja sopi tähän ficciin mun mielestä täydellisesti. En nyt ala spoilaamaa ja kertomaan, et miten tää ficci loppuu, koska eihän se nyt oo mitenkään ees hauskaa. He. Menkää ja lukekaa. Ja sitte voitte heti perään lukea sen tähän tulleen jatkon Twentyseven, joka siis oikeesti on yhtä hyvä ku tää, vaikka normist mä mollaisinki jatko-osia. Niin joo. Teen ehkä siitäki joskus merkinnän, kun pääsen niiin pitkälle. Mutta joo. Lukekaa ja kommentoikaa!

Red Is for Valentine [Death Note, Mello/Matt, Matt/OC, NC-17]

Red Is for Valentine by The Pyrat

Matt isn't a very social person, so why then is he staying out all night and making mysterious phone calls? Even stranger, why is he so determined to lie to Mello about it? Mello decides to get to the bottom of it, and discovers something unexpected...

There is this one thing about Death Note fics that I really, really like and its maybe the only why I even read these fics, because you just have to admit that there arent that many unique fics. But the thing. The storytelling style. And right now you would be saying how its not any unique either when its almost in every Death Note fic but I dont seriously care when its so perfect. There is this little bad ass thing going on there on the back ground and how the characters are bad ass kinda characters. That goes well with Mello and Matt at least. Mello being in mafia and all that. Matt on the other hand.. There couldnt be any other way for him to survive his life with Mello if he wasnt at least a little bit bad ass.

So after the awesome story telling there is left on this story only how Mello is in love with Matt and how Matt finds a girlfriend. Yup. So the story is all about how Mello tries to find Matt's secret and how that secret will change their whole relationship. Its also really important how Mello moves his ass to couch and lets Matt to sleep on the only bed in the apartment.

Besides the girlfriend part this whole fic is pretty much all cliche Mello/Matt fic. They have a crappy apartment and the AC is broken. Mello is nousy bastard and wants all Matt's attention for himself. Matt is also this easy going guy who just doesnt give much crap about anything but the same time cares about Mello a lot and tries to be as nice as possibly.

And what else?

Maybe nothing. Because seriously. This is just so cliche but also so awesome fic that I loved while reading. Yup. Thats pretty much all.

Tempus Fugit [Harry Potter, HD, NC-17]

Tempus Fugit by Stylophile

A monumental cock-up in Potions leaves Harry and Draco contending with more than mutual enmity, and a strong desire to utter all manner of profanities. Slash, sex and slurred words ensue.

I thought I had enough of these potions went wrong and Harry and Draco are trapped to some crazy place and they fall in love just cuz -fics. Well.. I liked this one and maybe I could read another fic like this at some point. Yebaa.

So. You already know the plot. Malfoy and Potter messed a potion and got trapped to their future... Their future together. At some point they ofc start to feel something for each other and fall in love. But before all that they have to go through a lot of funny, awkward, stupid scenes where they have to act like lovers so people wont suspect anything and make their friends to believe that there is nothing wrong.

Yeaa.. So now you are all just like what the fuck I saw in this one but the answer is pretty simple. They didnt just fall for each other cuz thats whats suppose to happen. They fall in love cuz they started to understand why they had fallen in love in the first place. They had all these dreams they didnt first understand but that had happened at some point. The dreams werent like in chronical order or wasnt like a whole own story. They just were these little scenes from their lifes together, separated. It was really good idea and it was really good written in the fic.

And then the other reason why I liked this so much was what happened after they got back to their own time. But Im not gonna tell you anything about that cuz that would just be spoiling. He.

So the things I didnt like.

Okey. There was bad guys and those bad guys attacting Draco and Harry. Okey, that wasnt anything bad or stupid in the fic. It was more like how those bad guys knew about their situation and how everyone just suspected it all happened because of the bad guys, which is pretty logical.. but still. Because in the end there is pretty simple explanation why things happened the way they did and it didnt have anything to do with the bad guy but still they bad guys acted all the time like they had caused the whole deal and that sucked.

I dont understand what the writer thought about that thing or why they did what they did. It just didnt make any sense in the end of the fic. Because if only Hermione knew about how those bakas were from the past, how did the bad guys got their hands on that fact at the very beging in the fic? I dont understand and this is bad kinda not understanding thing.

But if you are ready overlook some beauty flaws this is totally worth your time. Yeah. And you can pretty much skip all that crap that has something to do with the bad guys. Yebaa.

Feel It in My Bones [Death Note, Mello/Matt, NC-17]

Feel It in My Bones by PenguinxHero

'"Matt, you are the only person who can stand to be around Mello for any real length of time without feeling the urge to punch him in the face; this was bound to happen eventually." Just what was I getting myself into? ' M&M slash AU. Matt's POV.

There are lots of other parings too (L/Light, Light/Misa, Matt/Wedy, Near/Linda and so on) but they arent on spot light, more like they are just happening there somewhere... So yea. Its still full Mello/Matt fic.

Jeb. So the plot. Matt is in love with Mello and Mello is in love with Matt. The whole fic is all about how the other doesnt know about the others feelings and how they hurt each other because of it and how messed up their life really is around that fact. Yeb.

Okey. So. This was different. I dont know if I can say different like normally fics are different more like this is different in Mello/Matt fic world. I havent really read that many fics with them both in love with each other and the other more or less in oblivion about his feelings. But if you forget the Mello/Matt world thing there I would say this is pretty much the most cliche fic in the whole world.

The writing on the other hand was good, like really good. I just couldnt stop reading this. The whole fic disturbed my whole day because I just wanted to read it to the end and forget all the other shit. Ha.

But on the other hand there was nothing new. All the new was how it all went to Mello/Matt paring world and thats. So if you wanna read some cliche and Mello/Matt and you dont wanna suffer from shitty writing this is totally worth for your time. But if you just cant stand the cliches anymore this may not be a fic for your taste. Yeaa.

And I should probably soon stop blogging only about Mello/Matt fics and write about somethin else... But we will see. Ha.

Tinted Gold [Death Note, Mello/Matt, Nc-17]

Tinted Gold by 0-Kelly-0

I don’t like making eye contact with people, it’s too direct. He says I hide behind my goggles; I say the world looks much friendlier tinted with gold. The world as Matt sees it. The Wammy days and beyond. Matt x Mello Complete

This one is fucking awesome. Thats it. The whole awesomeness starts with how this all could be from Death Note, just outside from the actual happenings. After that you get to the part how the whole writing style is all about cynical and pessimistic thinking. It is just perfect.

The plot in itself isnt so original. Its starts with Matt going to orphanage and sharing a room with Mello and how they become best friends. Then Mello leaves and Matt is all alone again. Near gets Matt to come with him and that way to find Mello. They meet again, kiss, make up and together they hunt Kira. Yep. Nothing new about that.

The whole reason why this is awesome is how Matt thinks. To be more accurate, its more like how Matt sees the world through his goggles (everything has a little more gold in them). Somehow all that makes it just feel like there is no purpose behind anything and things just happen without reason. All that is just so simple and nothing special, so you cant stop reading. Like fucking seriously.

Okey. I havent even read this through yet (3 or less chapters left) but I just couldnt wait. Just no way. This is just.. Perfect. Thats it. Ha. Okey, I have to admit. Maybe one reason why I like this so much is because Matt kinda thinks the same way like I do. Sometimes I even get this feeling that if I knew how to write, like I really knew how to write, I would totally write shit like this. Just because at the same time shit matters but the same time its shit and doesnt really matter at all.

Maybe you have lost there somewhere but I dont give a shit. This one is perfect, awesome, whatever. I would even go so far and say that this is one of those reasons why I take so much crap while reading bad fiction, because in the end there are pearls like this one. Maybe it takes forever to find them but when you find them and read them you just cant not to fall in love. Like seriously.

So go and read this, please. I dont give a crap if you dont know a thing about Death Note. Just read. And if you didnt find any reason in my explanation to read this I kinda quoted a part from the fic (all the credits goes to the writer, cant froget that) to here. I know its long and its not so nice to quote peoples fics but I just had to. This is just perfect.

The world is so fake. The woman at the grocery store doesn't smile because she's genuinely glad to see you—she's smiling because her livelihood depends on that smile. No one cares about anyone else, not really. Everything's for mutual benefit. People get married because they need financial security, they want children, (because society expects you to go forth and reproduce or else you're a failure,) or they're just afraid of being lonely. 

You'll always be looking out for number one, just like everyone else; because that's the kind of world we live in. Those few, few cases where someone genuinely cares…those are the people that get trampled on. Those are the people who look up at the sky and wonder why it's raining, why it's bittersweet; those are the people who smile back at the woman in the grocery store. Not because they feel obligated by common courtesy, but because they're too naïve to realize that the world's not really golden. As soon as someone rips that from their eyes, and the world shows its true colors, do they realize how empty that gold was—just a tint, an overlay, a shield from reality. 

People go to the doctor because they're so sad that they're sick. Antidepressants make the world a little brighter—but what about the people who believe that the world really is good? What about the people who are happy? No one prescribes them pills to knock them back to reality. No, because those are the people that the rest of us feed off of. Their hope, however lame and fake, gives us a little. Just a little. Something to believe in, grasp to. Because that's what we do—grasp for comforts that will never be real, never be there. 

Reality hurts—it's not very easy to get used to something like that.