Until I Feel Something [Supernatural, Destiel, nc-17, oneshot]

Until I Feel Something by HardKinkandDeanWhump 

It had been many months since the man, Castiel had been his name, had led him down into the small room and asked him one last time if he was sure. 

When Dean woke up he was no longer strapped in place in front of the fuck machine, but instead stretched out flat on his back on the bed. For a moment he just laid there missing the movement but thankful that his ass was still plugged and locked full. He never wanted to be empty again. As he sat up, the plug shifted slightly and he inhaled sharply, closing his eyes and humming to himself in appreciation. This was a new plug, longer and wider, and as he clenched down on it he relished the sensation. Fullness was the gift Castiel was giving him. The single-minded focus on being stretched and filled and fucked, the knowledge -- the certainty, the conviction -- that these were the only sensations he was meant to feel. Castiel was conditioning Dean into what he was truly meant to be: a warm, wet, perfect, beautiful hole.

I have no idea how I found this or why I even liked this that much. Maybe the whole Dean's thought process and how everything moves forward so slowly. Everything is just so slow and gradual and still going forward. 

This is just something so out of left field that I have no words and no comments. But for some really weird reason I got hooked and Im adding this here. Yea.

But seriously. Dont read this if you are any way squeamish or sensitive to weird shit. This is the weirdest shit. Yea. 

Genuine callers only [Supernatural, Destiel, multichapter, nc-17]

Genuine callers only by Damsel in Shining Armour (Damsel_in_shining_armour) 

Dean's as alpha as they come, but he's also broke, he just lost his position as a mechanic and he needs a job desperately. So when he finds a job listing offering a position as personal omega companion to one Castiel Novak, well, he doesn't hesitate for very long before he picks up the phone. The job is of ‘intimate nature’, which means it’s not always glamorous, but turns out that working for Cas definitely has its perks. Now, if only Dean could manage to hide the fact that he's actually an alpha... 

// 

‘Have a good night, Dean’ Cas says, voice rough, as he hits the button to close the doors. Dean stands in front of the closed elevator for a few seconds before his brain goes back online and he drags himself away towards his own room. God, Castiel’s going to kill him one of these days. Either that, or he’s going to fuck him. Dean knows which one to hope for. 

// 

ABO but non-traditional. This is a story about an alpha-alpha couple. That having been said, you'll find the usual tropes, including power imbalances, the occasional dub-con moment and whatever the equivalent of sexism is in these kind of fics. 

I have been spoiled by all those super fluffy, cute Landoscar ABO fics. Thats the only reason why I even opened this. Seriously. This has everything I try to stay away from. All those crappy, over-sexualized, rapey things I dont really like to read about. 

But. At the same time there is something better and something worth the read. And this isnt even the worst I have read, this is pretty mild actually (even for a abo fic).

So what I am going to say is that I cried, I liked this but there were still things that are not my cup of tea. All that and maybe something else. 

So give it a change and maybe you will like it, or maybe not. Idk. It could really be worth it.

Sweater Curse [Supernatural, Drowley, Destiel, oneshot]

Sweater Curse by bendingsignpost

This thing Dean has going on with Crowley, it's really not a big deal. Yeah, he's hiding it from his friends and family, but he hardly has to tell them about everyone he ever sleeps with. After all, it’s only straightforward, morally dubious fun. It’s just sex. 

Which is why Crowley giving him the sweater comes as something of a surprise.

I wanted to read fics about Crowley. I have just lately really liked him in Supernatural. The problem is just finding the fics and then finding some good ones. But this is both of those things.

I would love to read more of this kind of relationship between these two. The whole idea of sugar daddy Crowley and sugar baby Dean is a little bit too good mix. Even when here it wasn't only that, but close enough.

There were parts I didn't like. However, there were more good things about this fic. The dynamics were all there, they stayed in character and all those randevouses were even better. Some of the things were just mentioned, but seriously, I would have loved to read all of those little things. 

I also liked how everyone kinda knew that the relationship wouldn't be for the rest of life. It had a place and time, and Dean acted upon it. Its just details that Crowley got too deep. But still. So, so, so good. 

Housewarming Gift [Supernatural, Destiel]

Housewarming Gift by peanutbutterjelly-pie (Aleakim) 

 Does it count as a midlife crisis when you buy a house and renovate it in secret, not telling your brother a single thing about it? 

Well, Dean most certainly doesn't handle Cas' death very well and so somehow he ends up grieving in his own special way: by building a home and praying that one day he will share it with someone very particular. 

 Deep down Dean knows it's a futile hope and probably not really healthy to cling onto it so desperately, but at the end of the day dreams occasionally come true, even for a Winchester. 

Right?

I am not crying. I am just crying through the whole fic. There was literally no moments with dry eyes. I don't even think that could be possible.

But still so lovely, so powering and so sad. The ending just made it all even more worth it.

 

Not the Fire but the Spark [Supernatural, Destiel, Nc-17]

Not the Fire but the Spark by goldenraeofsun 

Dean refused to look up his soulmate. His parents ran into each other by chance. Karen stopped by Bobby’s garage after her car unexpectedly broke down. Sam got seated next to Eileen on a plane, and he spent two hours miming conversation before she admitted she read lips.

Was it stupid for Dean to hold out for a story like that? Probably.

But he doesn’t regret his decision - not until Castiel Novak wanders into his tattoo parlor, asking about a cover up for his soulmark. 

This is another awesome fic where they actually think about the whole soulmate business. Like, they don't just automatically get their happily ever afters if they are soulmates. Their lives can fall apart and they can become stranges to each other. The most important part is that they have to do the work for the relationship to work and nurish and actually survive.

So basically this is not some fairytale soulmate fic where everyone is just super happy and have their happily ever after. Okay. Maybe some of them do. But the point was that the happily ever after is not given.

The other important part here is that if you are in any asexual spectrum it is okay. There is one aromantic person and she doesn't have a soulmate. And she is fine with that. And thats the norm. She doesn't want a soulmate, she wants to live her life without a lifepartner and is not "forced" to have a soulmate to share it with. Seriously. This is the kind of thinking I love.

Also. They dip into the thing where your soulmate's soulmatetattoo doesn't change even if you change your name. I am not so sure what to think about this, but I kind of like it. The whole thing has this one big question that I would love to have an answer for. Like, lets say you get abandoned as a baby. Your mother/father leaves you at the firestation without a name (so they can't be trased). Basically you kind of have to have a name at that point but then you need a name to live with. So which name is going to be on your soulmate's arm? And how can you be sure that the other is your soulmate if they have the name your bioparents' gave you but even you don't know that name?

I maybe should mention that they have name tattoos in this one. Where your soulmates name is tattood on your arm. Yea. Probably this info should be somewhere in the beginning but I can't be arsed to edit that much of the text.

Anyways. Why can't more soulmate fics be like this? I know this kind of world is getting more popular but still. I would love to read more soulmate fics where there is the possibility of you just being such a jackass that the relationship just doesn't work. So please. Feel free to leave links to similiar fics to the comments and I promise to at least check them out. Thanks.

PWP Oneshots part 17 [Entourage, Merlin, Supernatural, Star Trek]

Have fun kids! ♥

I Only Wanna Dance With You by orphan_account
[Merthur]

Merlin is in love with his best friend, Arthur. Every year they go to Gwen and Lance's spring party and every year Arthur leaves Merlin to dance with countless men while Merlin gets drunk. This year is different.

faith and desire and the swing of your hips by ingberry
[Merthur]

Merlin (who works under Lance, who works under him) is grinding on the dance floor at the club in a way that is completely obscene. Arthur can't stop watching. It's making his cock and his life equally hard.

Ready or not by zation
[Destiel]

"I’m saying, with you naked and hard, holding me down, I wouldn’t mind calling you daddy." Or, The one where Cas’ friends put ideas in his head, which Dean reaps the benefits of.

Third Person Viewing by a_good_soldier
[Destiel]

Dean gets turned into a twenty-six year old. He has issues about it. 

Not sure if this belongs here or not. But I don't have the inspiration to write a whole post about this one. So it can now belong here.

Untouchable (Not By You) by Mrs_SimonTam_PHD
[Dean/Eliot]

Dean and Eliot share a night together.

Personal Security by fourteencandles (thingsbaker)
[Eric/Vincent]

“Hard day, superstar?” Vince nips the juncture between Eric’s neck and shoulder. “I want to fuck,” he says. Eric laughs and pushes away the chicken. “Right now?” “I can wait for you to brush your teeth,” Vince says, drawing back.

To the Ends of the Earth by The Mighty Porthos (Porthos4ever)
[Eric/Vincent]

How is he supposed to resist when Vince looks over at him with that smile, wide and warm with his lips so lush and so fucking inviting?

Disciplinary Matter by waldorph
[Spirk]

Jim's pretty sure he's got mutiny right now. He's got a lapful of mutiny.

ride that into the sunset by waldorph
[Spirk]

Jim wants to ride that (and by "that" he means "Spock's dick") into the sunset

dean's coworkers vs the heteronormative agenda [Supernatural, Destiel]

dean's coworkers vs the heteronormative agenda by cowboydeanwinchester 

Dean started working at a local auto repair shop in Lebanon, Kansas about a year ago. His coworkers don't know much about him. Except that he has a wife. Or maybe he doesn't. But he has a kid. Who is either a toddler or a high schooler. Who is either named Jack or Sammy. He also might have a best friend named Cas, but that also might be his wife. Truth is nobody knows what to make of Dean. -- In universe, where nobody dies and Cas and Dean get domestic and Dean doesn't realize the mental hoola-hoops he's causing his coworkers to work through. 

I had way too much fun while reading this. I can so see this happening, like seriously. All those misunderstandings and how Dean is way too blind to see how people may not keep up with him. Ah. Pure gold.

Even the whole universe is awesome. With no one dead and them actually finding happily ever after. I have been looking for fics like this for the past week or so just so I could read about Dean and Cas being dads and Jack being their kid. Like. Who wouldn't like them to be all domestic and so happy and in love. Thats the dream (and way better than the actual ending, lets just pretend it never happened).

Also. I was kind of waiting for this to end with Dean and Cas not being together but just pining for each other. And maybe the coworkers helping them to get together. 

So. Please. Share more fics like this in the comments. Please. I want to read them and share them and get more people to read them. Thank you.

First and Only [Supernatural, Destiel, Nc-17]

First and Only by almaasi

Single bachelor Dean bets he can have sex more times within a calendar year than his happily-married brother. But when Castiel – Dean’s roommate, best friend, and total virgin – asks Dean to be his First, Dean’s plan to bed numerous strangers goes up in smoke. Over the weeks, then the months, Cas becomes his go-to guy. His “fuck buddy”, if you will. But that doesn’t sound right. It doesn’t feel right. Dean was Cas’ First, but now he wants to be Cas’ Only. Now he’s gotta figure out how the heck to court a guy he’s successfully wooed a hundred times already.

I am just going to leave this here and remember that I actually read this. And hopefully that way I don't try to read this again. My brain just can't take these two anymore.

The fic is good and all that. I just can't understand those two sometimes, even when it all makes perfect sense and is good. I just can't. That's it.

Anything You Can Do [Supernatural, Destiel, Nc-17]

Anything You Can Do by FagurFiskur

“I don’t know what I expected,” she continued. “Maybe if it had only been about sex…” she paused, glancing around the room. Dean ducked out of view, just in time. When Daphne spoke again, her voice was lowered, “But even then, I don’t think it would have worked. Between you and me, he’s not as good at it as Castiel was.”

What. The. Fuck?

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In which Dean sets out to prove that he's better at sex than Castiel, all the while insisting that he's straight. Really.

I don't really remember how this fic ends. Its really been that long time since I read this but I have finally found the inspiration to blog about this one.

So basically Dean is just trying to understand how Castiel could be so awesome in bed and ends up in a relationship with the guy.  There are all these important parts where they suck at talking to each other and actually telling all these little details. But those things aren't that important until the end so I don't really remember how it went down in the end.

Anyways. Why I liked this one is just Dean. How he does something without actually really thinking about it or acknowledging it. And then everything just spirals out of control. I liked how he owned it all in the end and had all that courage to just go with the flow. He did what made him happy. Normally all the fics are about Dean questioning himself and if he can do this or not. Most of the time is also wasted on him trying to deny everything and being miserable.

So I really liked how all those shitty parts were skipped without actually limiting any drama or heartbreak.

But seriously. Daphne and Dean. Who the fuck comes up with this shit? I could never actually imagine those two together. Just weird as fuck. Seriously. The good thing is that that whole thing is totally a side thing with only brief mentioning here and there.

Medicine [Supernatural, Destiel, Nc-17]

Medicine by vipjuly

Before Castiel came into the picture, Dean had been pretty sure he was straight as an arrow.

That illusion had been shattered the second he shook hands with Castiel four years ago when they brought him on as their new bassist.

I have been trying to read something else than Entourage the past forever but that's not as easy as it sounds. The problem is finding new fics and then actually liking them. So I have been kind of jumping from fandom to fandom and I have not really read that much. Okay. The problem was way before I even found Entourage fics but that's just details.

So anyways. Back to the point. This. This one I almost skipped for some reason. But thank god I was bored out of my mind (and maybe a little bit drunk, sue me) and actually opened this. Because I fell in love the way this was written. Just perfect. That's the only way to describe it.

The other thing is how this went from just trying to keep up with their backstory to actually cheer for Dean and how he did something for himself (and Cas).

And the thing is. I love all these super underground band fics. Okay. I love all band fics where the characters are real and actually make it seem cool without overdoing anything. And this fic is all that and a little bit Destiel on the side notes (more than little, to be honest). So totally worth it. So fucking worth it and awesome.

Please read this.

Wee Little Love Child [Supernatural, Destiel]

Wee Little Love Child by almaasi

After being magically de-aged, little Sammy is under the impression that Dean and Cas are his parents. He wants to know if they're in love, but they can't (or won't) give a consistent answer. The thing is, they have to grant Sam's greatest wish in order to reverse the curse, but they can only do that as a pair. What does Sam want most? For Dean and Cas to express their true feelings. Aloud. To each other.

Cuteness overload. Seriously. This is what this fic is all about.

The thing I loved about this was those little ingredients for the antidote. Like at the same time they made no sense but in the next moment all those were perfect and made so much sense. Yea. I just loved the idea and the thought behind them. Just perfect.

Also. I liked how they finally talked and how it ended up pretty awesomely. Like they got their happy ending but it felt real and like reality, not just some stupid fairytale. Yea.

And the rest of the fic was just cute and Sam was even cuter and all that. Yup.

Sunrise, once more [Supernatural, Destiel, Nc-17]

Sunrise, once more by 60r3d0m

It’s the sun rising. It’s what he thinks as he’s walking back to the cabin, where Jack and Sam will pretend that his eyes aren’t swollen red, where they’ll pretend that they didn’t see him cry as hard as he did. But the great light that comes from behind him isn’t that. The fire that ignites from the heart of the pyre isn’t the goddamn sun.

It’s Cas.

(fix-it coda for 13.01 where Cas comes back because I miss him)

I almost put a warning to the title how this is super sad and makes you want to cry. Maybe I should make a tag for stuff like that. Maybe. Too lazy to do stuff like that, seriously.

But to be honest. Dean is sad. Everyone is sad. And maybe Dean become a dad by accident. Kind of. Maybe. I don't know. I have no idea what happened in the episode that Cas died (when writing this, I have not watched it and probably wont watch it in the next forever, so) and I kind of don't want to even know.

But this. This bag of sad fur is depressing. It is sad. It is full of tears. And I just want to read it again. Fuck that. Just go, read and cry. And don't be that happy about it. Just no.

Neighborly Behavior [Supernatural, Destiel]

Neighborly Behavior by Annie D (scaramouche)

Cas and Dean at a neighborhood potluck, in an AU where they're both kinda assholes.

I learned a new word today. Potluck. For some reason I firstly tried to understand how you can have luck with pots or something along the lines. But then I just had to google the word and find what it actually means. And yea, my detective skills with new words are actually pretty bad.

Anyways. Less about that and more about the fic itself.

It felt like I needed something totally different and nothing serious. Something that just is there and you can just read it for the sake of it without it taking over your life or take you whole day to finnish. And this fills all those gaps and a little bit more.

There is not really a plot. There is no porn either. There is just Cas not being that social or understanding human clues. And Dean being his flirty self. Yup. That is the whole fic. You are welcome.

Welcome All Winchesters [Supernatural, Destiel, Nc-17]

Welcome All Winchesters by almaasi

When Dean’s engagement breaks off three days before Christmas, he’s left with nobody to accompany him on a road trip to his family’s mountain log cabin. His best friend Castiel happens to be available, and is willing to help him through a tough time. But when Dean's mother and brother arrive, expecting to meet the person Dean plans to marry, they understandably assume Castiel is Dean's fiancé. After a weekend of comfortable domesticity, sharing clothes, intimate conversations, and definitely-one-time-only therapy sex, it feels almost too easy for Dean and Cas to fake a loving, romantic relationship. The hard part is going back to being friends afterwards. They can’t keep their hands off each other, and they’ve discovered some fun things to do together which they’d never tell another soul about. And, oh boy, feelings. Now being ‘just friends’ is so impossible, it seems as if fate had another plan for them all along...

I have this plan to have a list of good christmas themed fics on the Christmas day. It is all done and ready, but I did not want to put this one on that list for lots of reasons.

One of those reasons is that I really liked this on so many levels. Not just because this is well written and there is so much thought behind everything. But also because these two were finally talking about things and putting stuff out there. They had conversation about stuff that are not easy to talk about and they showed how grown they were.

Then the whole Mary leaving John thingy and all how everyone had a past. Castiel's past was kind of super weird but it fits Castiel so well. No other way to say it. And the whole Winchester thing with them sticking together and being a family. I like that. I don't usually like fics where Mary is because of reasons (one of them is that I don't like the Mary in the tv show but there are others) but here I liked her.

Okay. There are stuff that I did not like. But those were few and did not play that big part in the grand scheme of things (how can Cas be a teacher when he has criminal past, isn't that something Americans have a lot of problems with? I don't know really). Because Sam had his PhD and that is just way too cool.

But christmas. It is time for family and this whole fic was all about that. So this needs special mentioning and kind of good start for my christmas special in this blog. So merry christmas and maybe don't spent the whole christmas reading fics. Spent some time with family and be happy.

Asexual Month 2.0 [Teen Wolf, Sherlock, Supernatural]

I had to do the whole month with only fics about asexual people again. I just had to. There are not so many of these fics and that's really sad. So I at least tried to find as many fics as possible for this month. Which is why I am again finishing this month with a list of good fics.

Go and read them! Also, make the author feel loved ♥ Thank you.

Domestic Bliss and Other Nonsense by moonstalker24
[Stiles/Peter, Teen Wolf]

"So, I think we should get married."

Peter chokes, fumbles for a second, then manages to set his mug of tea down on the coffee table. He turns to look at Stiles, who is sprawled over the end of the couch, flipping through an old book.

"What?" Peter asks.

Stiles turns bright amber eyes on the stunned werewolf. "We should get married."

“Why?”

“So all the books can be in one place.”

Intimacy  by theaeblackthorn
[Sterek, Teen Wolf]

Sex is there. Sex is a thing. Sex happens. It's just not something Derek's very interested in.

Derek likes intimacy. Derek likes being possessive. Derek likes moments like this.

Doesn't Add Up by Goldenpetal13
[Sterek, Teen Wolf]

The first time Derek notices, is when he's hiding in Stiles' room, hiding from the law that happens to be Stiles' dad, something doesn't smell right, or more accurately something is missing from the smell of a teenage boy's room.

He doesn't say anything, just lets it go, but it sits there idly in the back of his mind.

After that he starts to take more notice, not only of the boy, but how the boy is slightly different, slightly not what he's expecting, and that smell is still missing.

How Renting Led to Dating by Akira_of_the_Twilight
[Stiles/Peter/Chris]

Chris had been eating his lunch as he went over the finance books to make sure they were balanced for the month and that he’d be able pay his personal bills when realization dawned on him.

He was dating Stiles Stilinski and Peter Hale.

Chris stopped scrawling in his books and gaped as his brain turned over this realization.

He had been dating Stiles Stilinski and Peter Hale for months now and he hadn’t noticed.

Surprisingly Simple by heeroluva
[JohnLock]

In which John is asexual, and Sherlock never asks.

Compromises Lead to the Best Experiments by SailorChibi
[JohnLock]

Helping John get off doesn't do anything for Sherlock, but he's realized it's a necessary part of their relationship - and, as a bonus, John is fantastically pliant and cuddly afterwards. He's got handjobs down to a science (literally) until John suggests that maybe they should try going a little slower. It's not as boring as it sounds.

Or, the one in which Sherlock is asexual, still dominates in bed, and decides to turn John's orgasms into an experiment.

Wait by Bookkbaby
[Destiel]

"I promised not to push, and I’m not gonna. We’ll wait until you’re ready, ok? No pressure."

"What if I’m never ready?"

How many slams in an old screen door? by dandelioness
[Destiel]

In which Castiel is a theatre major terrible at first impressions; Dean is a set designer who likes Cas anyway; and the most chaotic production of Les Miserables in history somehow manages to go off without a hitch. Or, just as you should never give a moose a muffin (because he'll want some jam to go with it), you should never give a blank check to a university theatre department. (Please read the notes)

Get it Wrong, Get it Right by discreetmath
[Destiel]

Dean’s been mixed up over his feelings for a long time, but it never occurs to him that Cas might be mixed up, too.

 Then I found this awesome series that gets updated over valentines. Or looks like it at least. These are about aro people and their lifes and how they get by. So please go check it out also. Contains different fandoms and pairings.

aro-ace Valentine fics by SailorChibi

Every year for Valentine's Day I write fic involving aromantic characters.

Waiting For That Final Moment [Supernatural, Destiel, Asexual month]

Waiting For That Final Moment by almaasi

Winchester Wheels roller rink is all prettied up for an epic 80s-themed wedding. In a few minutes, Dean and Lisa will be pronounced man and wife. But, on a day his life is meant to feel full and complete, Dean's heart is breaking, as his best friend Castiel is a no-show. Unbeknownst to Dean, Castiel is pacing outside, just waiting for the right moment to burst in and yell, "I OBJECT!"

I kinda didn't want to blog about this while the asexual month is going on. At the same, I also felt like there is no better time to blog about this than this month. So I don't really know.

The thing is that no one is making a big deal about Cas being an ace. No one. He just is and it floats there somewhere. Everybody knows it and it is enough for everyone. And that is the reason why I want to blog about this. You don't have to make a big deal about someone's sexuality (or in this case, lack of it) if they don't want you to do it.

These things can just float there and, only the person that it affects gets to have a say in it and decide how to deal with it. Yup. Everyone can just shut they pie hole and be fucking happy. You are welcome.

For Science [Supernatural, Destiel, Nc-17, Asexual Month]

For Science by shiphitsthefan

“Think of it like an experiment," says Dean. "You’re testing a hypothesis as to whether or not a desirable response can be achieved through the stimulation of the anus via the application of a willing volunteer’s muscular hydrostat.”

Cas raises an eyebrow. “Are you actually trying to use the scientific method to talk me into letting you lick my asshole?”

Yea. They have sex and Cas is not literally asexual. But the thing is, demisexual is still under the whole grey ace category. And we have to acknowledge all the different sexualities under that title too. It won't be fair otherwise.

But anyways. Back to the point. I really liked how Castiel had all the questions about himself even when some of the things were pretty clear to him. I also liked Dean how he was just so understanding and understood what being an ace means. We need more people like Dean.

The Chronicles of Dean's Bisexuality [Supernatural, Destiel, Dean/Others, Nc-17, Asexual Month]

The Chronicles of Dean's Bisexuality by mnwood

An exploration of what Supernatural would've been like if Dean Winchester was canonically bisexual from the beginning.

ASEXUAL MONTH PART 2 ! YAY !

I wanted to do the whole asexual month again. Not just because I came across so many amazing fics with ace characters but because I wanted to make the pop out more. I wanted them to a bigger thing on my blog than just some original post with a shit ton of my ranting.

The reason why I am starting this month with this fic is because there are so many sides to things. There are so many sexual orientations and how people deal with sexualisation and sex. How there are good and bad things. The only thing I don't agree with this fic is that I think Dean is more like pansexual than bi. He just has this vibe that he goes wherever his libido takes him and it feels more fluid than just being bi. But everyone identifies differently and sees things differently so we can't really fight about this. This is just my own opinion.

Otherwise, this fic goes the whole Supernatural from the start (or a bit before the start even) to the season 10. About at least. So pretty much the whole Supernatural with just Dean being bi and him and Cas getting together at some point. Okey. Maybe some things are a little bit more different than that, but the point is just how Dean's bisexuality could change the plot.

But the thing I liked the most was how everything affected everything. Dean changed after hell. Sam changed. Castiel grows as a person. Everything just changed a little bit at the time and some things affected the characters in a good way or in a bad way. Maybe most of the things were a bad way but that's just Supernatural to you.

This is also way too long to read in one sitting. And I want to go back to those oneshots that have less than 10 000 words. I really miss those.

So anyways. Read, comment and leave kudos. Thank you.

Lead By Your Beating Heart [Supernatural, Destiel, Nc-17]

Lead By Your Beating Heart by FollowingButterflies

After a night of celebrating (heavy drinking) with his brother surgical intern Dean Winchester discovers that his resident, talented Cardio surgeon Castiel Novak, is...well a huge douche bag...kind of hot but still a huge douche bag. A douche bag that he's stuck with for the rest of the year, that's if he survives the year without Castiel killing him and making it look like an accident. So why is it that an easy friendship forms between the two men that swiftly becomes something Dean never expected to find when he moved to Chicago.

In the beginning, I got all this Grey's Anatomy vibes from this. But thank god that wasn't true. Wouldn't have liked to read that mashup. Seriously. There is nothing wrong with the mashup idea but I just can't read anything that has Grey's Anatomy's plot in it. I have watched all the episodes way too many times and I almost know it by heart, so it would kinda be a little bit too boring for me. So yea. No Grey's Anatomy mashups for me.

But the fic itself was good. I liked the characters and how they fit into this world (I even liked John as a trauma surgeon). Even Michael fit as Deans ex and all that. Just good.

Even the whole world. How it felt accurate and right. All the background info the writer was able to put there and it even seemed legit like all the time. I really don't know anything about medicine or how hospitals work but it still felt good and all the effort was shown there. Yup.

The only downside were all the typos. There was a lot of typos in there, some letters missing, sometimes wrong letters in wrong places, words that made zero sense etc. The whole thing was so well written and the plot was amazing. Just the typos. Okey. I was able to get past all that because everything else was just so amazing and perfect.

Even the ending. I really liked it for multiply reasons. One of them was how they got the fresh start and how all the stigma from their relationship was not a problem anymore. It was just good. Really good.

So yea. Read it. Totally worth it. Thank you.

A Different Kind of Falling [Supernatural, Destiel, Nc-17]

A Different Kind of Falling by Lyrial

“I will do it then,” Castiel said with confidence that he did not truly possess. “I will pretend to be a hunter and gain the trust of Dean Winchester so that we may locate Michael’s grace and restore him. I might not be as familiar with humanity as Balthazar is, but I am still a master tactician. I am certain that deceiving a few humans will be well within my capabilities.”

As the humans would say, famous last words.

(Dean is the fallen archangel Michael. Castiel is sent on a mission to restore him to his angelic self. Things get complicated, however, when Castiel finds himself falling for Dean.)

I have kinda got addicted to fics where Dean is angel. All those different reasons and different outcomes. Even the Dean is Michael thing is interesting how it could take dosens of different turns and you are left question what turn it will take.

I don't know about anything in this fic. I just don't know. But I like everything it (okey, almost everything). And I wouldn't mind reading more like this. Okey. Im so reading more Dean is angel fics but I wouldn't mind more fics where Dean is actual Michael and not just Michael's vessel.

So I'll keep reading these and sharing the best with you. Yup. Go and make the author feel loved! Thank you. ♥

(Maybe that life wouldn't be such a bad thing, right?)