Feel It in My Bones [Death Note, Mello/Matt, NC-17]

Feel It in My Bones by PenguinxHero

'"Matt, you are the only person who can stand to be around Mello for any real length of time without feeling the urge to punch him in the face; this was bound to happen eventually." Just what was I getting myself into? ' M&M slash AU. Matt's POV.

There are lots of other parings too (L/Light, Light/Misa, Matt/Wedy, Near/Linda and so on) but they arent on spot light, more like they are just happening there somewhere... So yea. Its still full Mello/Matt fic.

Jeb. So the plot. Matt is in love with Mello and Mello is in love with Matt. The whole fic is all about how the other doesnt know about the others feelings and how they hurt each other because of it and how messed up their life really is around that fact. Yeb.

Okey. So. This was different. I dont know if I can say different like normally fics are different more like this is different in Mello/Matt fic world. I havent really read that many fics with them both in love with each other and the other more or less in oblivion about his feelings. But if you forget the Mello/Matt world thing there I would say this is pretty much the most cliche fic in the whole world.

The writing on the other hand was good, like really good. I just couldnt stop reading this. The whole fic disturbed my whole day because I just wanted to read it to the end and forget all the other shit. Ha.

But on the other hand there was nothing new. All the new was how it all went to Mello/Matt paring world and thats. So if you wanna read some cliche and Mello/Matt and you dont wanna suffer from shitty writing this is totally worth for your time. But if you just cant stand the cliches anymore this may not be a fic for your taste. Yeaa.

And I should probably soon stop blogging only about Mello/Matt fics and write about somethin else... But we will see. Ha.

Tinted Gold [Death Note, Mello/Matt, Nc-17]

Tinted Gold by 0-Kelly-0

I don’t like making eye contact with people, it’s too direct. He says I hide behind my goggles; I say the world looks much friendlier tinted with gold. The world as Matt sees it. The Wammy days and beyond. Matt x Mello Complete

This one is fucking awesome. Thats it. The whole awesomeness starts with how this all could be from Death Note, just outside from the actual happenings. After that you get to the part how the whole writing style is all about cynical and pessimistic thinking. It is just perfect.

The plot in itself isnt so original. Its starts with Matt going to orphanage and sharing a room with Mello and how they become best friends. Then Mello leaves and Matt is all alone again. Near gets Matt to come with him and that way to find Mello. They meet again, kiss, make up and together they hunt Kira. Yep. Nothing new about that.

The whole reason why this is awesome is how Matt thinks. To be more accurate, its more like how Matt sees the world through his goggles (everything has a little more gold in them). Somehow all that makes it just feel like there is no purpose behind anything and things just happen without reason. All that is just so simple and nothing special, so you cant stop reading. Like fucking seriously.

Okey. I havent even read this through yet (3 or less chapters left) but I just couldnt wait. Just no way. This is just.. Perfect. Thats it. Ha. Okey, I have to admit. Maybe one reason why I like this so much is because Matt kinda thinks the same way like I do. Sometimes I even get this feeling that if I knew how to write, like I really knew how to write, I would totally write shit like this. Just because at the same time shit matters but the same time its shit and doesnt really matter at all.

Maybe you have lost there somewhere but I dont give a shit. This one is perfect, awesome, whatever. I would even go so far and say that this is one of those reasons why I take so much crap while reading bad fiction, because in the end there are pearls like this one. Maybe it takes forever to find them but when you find them and read them you just cant not to fall in love. Like seriously.

So go and read this, please. I dont give a crap if you dont know a thing about Death Note. Just read. And if you didnt find any reason in my explanation to read this I kinda quoted a part from the fic (all the credits goes to the writer, cant froget that) to here. I know its long and its not so nice to quote peoples fics but I just had to. This is just perfect.

The world is so fake. The woman at the grocery store doesn't smile because she's genuinely glad to see you—she's smiling because her livelihood depends on that smile. No one cares about anyone else, not really. Everything's for mutual benefit. People get married because they need financial security, they want children, (because society expects you to go forth and reproduce or else you're a failure,) or they're just afraid of being lonely. 

You'll always be looking out for number one, just like everyone else; because that's the kind of world we live in. Those few, few cases where someone genuinely cares…those are the people that get trampled on. Those are the people who look up at the sky and wonder why it's raining, why it's bittersweet; those are the people who smile back at the woman in the grocery store. Not because they feel obligated by common courtesy, but because they're too naïve to realize that the world's not really golden. As soon as someone rips that from their eyes, and the world shows its true colors, do they realize how empty that gold was—just a tint, an overlay, a shield from reality. 

People go to the doctor because they're so sad that they're sick. Antidepressants make the world a little brighter—but what about the people who believe that the world really is good? What about the people who are happy? No one prescribes them pills to knock them back to reality. No, because those are the people that the rest of us feed off of. Their hope, however lame and fake, gives us a little. Just a little. Something to believe in, grasp to. Because that's what we do—grasp for comforts that will never be real, never be there. 

Reality hurts—it's not very easy to get used to something like that.

Choices [Death Note, Mello/Matt, Nc-17]

Choices by ShinigamiMailJeevas

Matt, a genius hacker and spy, is sent undercover at Wammys for the sole purpose of discovering the secrets of the mysterious letter known only as L. The only problem... he didn't plan on falling in love with his roommate. Some yaoi, Character death.

Its been almost two years since I read this. But seriously. I cant not to read this again. There are just so many little things. All those explanations and all the things Matt sees and how it all just builds a bigger scene and gosh.

The plot, on the other hand, is kinda simple. Matt has to find out as much as he can about L and he really tries to do it. He gets in, blends in, "makes friends" and is just like any other genius teenager in that school. And then Mello comes. It just so fun to read how their relationships is build on pranks and fights and all that but in the end they cant almost live without each other. It is just so perfect. Okey, perfect until the end where there is the death thing Im not gonna talk about because I just cant.

Dont be afraid now. Its nothing scary or anything, the ending is just so sad and life changing. Even when you would love to change it to something else you cant really imagine any other ending, at least I cant and I hate the eding. I really, really do.

Okey. Enough about death lets just concentrate to the fic and all those small details. First of all there are lots of game details (you can start with mentioning of Sephiroth and that way Final Fantasy) and how it all just cliks and makes you wonder if the writer is a game geek. Like seriously. After that there is how Matt is always so lazy. He does things and he attends, but not much, but in the end there is almost in every scene something that reminds how lazy Matt is and how he just doesnt wanna do things cuz its almost too troublesome (to quote Naruto).

Then we can move to all those things that other notice and how Matt knows that everybody notices. Well thinking about it like right now it all just feels maybe a little bit too much but while reading it just feels natural with them being genius and all that crap. So while it is too much it isnt. Srange. But I totally like it.

And we cant forget Mello. Our little, weird, short tempered and chocolate addicted Mello. Yeaa. Most of all I like how Mello is around Near and how it is almost natural with all the hate and dislike between those two with ofc Near being kinda outsider. I cant explain it, it just feels good and looks good and ou god how well written it is. Mello's character is well written with all that concentrating and not eating and all other bad habits. He just is the Mello we know from the Death Note. Yep.

But the writing style in this one. Its so awesome when its not quite from Matt's perspective but at the same time it is. Its not "I did this and I can do that" its only Matts thoughts and how it all is still "he did this and he can do that" but still in your head it feels like Matt is actually talking or we are hearing his thoughts. The whole thing is plain genius, good, awesome and so on.

Thinking about the whole fic now I can only say one thing I dont like and its the ending. Its that the whole death thing and how sad it is. I would loved a happy ending to this but like always in life you cant always get what you want. So we get the almost perfect fic without happy, nice, lovely ending. Okey. The ending is kinda lovely but its all sad lovely. So yea. Go and fucking read this. If this isnt worth for your time then nothing is. Thats it.

Benefits of Yoga [Death Note, Mello/Matt, NC-17]

Benefits of Yoga by NessaYume

Kiyomi drags a reluctant Matt off to her yoga class, where he discovers the benefits of such an activity.

This is one of those "get these two together and notice how they have hanged out in same groups without knowing" -kinda thing. Yeaa.

Maybe the idea isnt so good or the writing isnt perfect either. But Mello is kinda cute and Matt is kinda cute and then they figure out how everyone is trying to get them together. And in the end they start dating. Yep.

Thats the whole fic, well oneshot but still whole fic.There were couple things that werent so good. Like how their behavior changed and how they were like two different persons sometimes.. You can kinda explain it with how people react differently to different things and how everything isnt the same in different situations. But to me the change was just too much. Yea.

On the other hand this was all cute and tried to be light fic which this totally is. So if you wanna just read something light, not so humorous fic this is totally worth it. Yeaa. And this is like the shortest post ever but I just dont know what else to say bout this one. So comment after you have read this, please.

Fanfiction Suggestion -Month // Ehdota ficciä -kuukausi

Okey. So let's dedicate a month for you to suggest a fanfiction to me and I'll blog about them (well lets start with a month and go on from that). So. The only rules are that the language is in English or in Finnish. My Germany and Swedish just arent good enough for this.

And then that fandom thing. Lets just say that all the fandoms I have mentioned here in this blog are okey and Im pretty sure there isnt so many popular fandoms that I dont know so suggest almost anything. And dont worry, I will comment here somewhere if I dont know the fandom/characters. But more good fandoms could be for example Nana, Full Metal Alchemist, Star Wars and Narnia. So go on from there : D

When I still remember, if it is your own fic I will try and leave a comment there for you about what I think and such if possible. I may do it even if you arent the writer but I try to promise to those who suggests their own fics at least.

And thanks already for those who want to suggest something : )

Ja sama suomeks.

Okei. Eli koko heinäkuun ajan (tai no tästä eteenpäin vaikka forever, mutta ainakin nyt näin aluksi heinäkuun ajan) ajattelin blogata ficcejä, joita te ehdotatte. Ainoat ehdot näille ficeille on kieli, eli vain suomeksi ja englanniksi (mun saksa ja ruotsi ei nyt vaan oo tarpeeks lukemiseen) ficcejä, kiitos.

Fandomista vaan sen verran, että luen ficcejä niin monesta fandomista kuin mahdollista, tietysti vähän rajottaa se että miten hyvin tiedän hahmoja yms. Joten kaikki fandomit, joista olen täällä jo blogannu on ehdottomasti okei ja sitten muutama muu vois olla vaikka Nana, Full Metal Alchemist, Star Wars, Narnia ja ja ja keksikää ite. Todennäkösesti pystyn kyllä lukemaan niitä, ei oo hirveesti sellasia mitä en pysty lukemaan, joten ha. Kokeilkaa.

Ja vielä kun muistan, niin niitä omia ficcejä saa ehdottaa. Tässä tapauksessa yritän kommentoida parhaani mukaan ficciin ja antaa jotain palautetta. Tietysti joissain tapauksissa en voi tehdä tätä, mutta yritän parhaani. Totta kai mä myös yritän jättää kommenttia, jos ficci ei ole sun, mutta pääasiassa tää lupaus menee nyt niille, jotka niitä omia ficcejään ehdottelee : )

Ja kiitos jo nyt.

A Love Game [Tokio Hotel, Tb, Nc-17]

A Love Game by thywillbedone

The Kaulitz and Trümper families have always been close. The parents met at college and they moved in the same neighborhood and their children grew up together. Andreas and Michelle, the older children, fell in love and now, the family is gathering together to celebrate their wedding

Where to start? I have no idea and I still want to blog about this. Okey. Maybe I just have to start with the plot and go on from there cuz I have no idea about anything else.

So. Tom's brother and Bill's sister are getting married and because of that Tom is getting back home. No scratch that. Lets start with Tom being a girl. Yea. That sounds pretty right. And ofc Bill is a model and owns a Audi R8, jeb, and you can totally buy me that car if you have that much extra money. Then we have to remember all those vibes that gives you feeling how everybody just hates Tom.

Ugh. This is good. Thats it. This is fucking good with awesome writing style (okey thywillbedone is one of writers that I like so kinda expected for me to like this) and its good that sometimes Tom is the girl and not Bill. Also its good how there is things like cheating that makes every character more deep and real. Like Bill doesnt like cheating cuz his girlfriends have cheated him. Well.. Its not nice that Tom kinda uses that.. But not gonna go there.

Then there is this wedding and how relaxed the wedding is and how I just liked the whole deal. Especially how there were shown their friendship and how much it seemed to mean to everybody and how they wanted to have the on last time as friends and it was just good like that. Then the relatives that people didnt like (Tom didnt like her cousin) and how they also affected them and crap like that.

I have no idea how to speak you into readin this. So just go to read this and thats it. Thanks.