I Want You to Love Me (i want you to leave me) [Avengers, Tony Stark/Pepper Pots, asexual month]

I Want You to Love Me (i want you to leave me) by Unadulterated

Tony doesn’t want what everyone else seems to want, and can’t make himself like what everyone else seems to love. So he keeps his mouth shut and his smile bright.
It doesn’t occur to him that maybe his normal is not to be.

I have no idea who the fuck even thought it would look like a good idea to make Tony Stark asexual. Thats like against his whole persona and view of life and shit. But (and at this point I just love the word but) after this it kinda makes sense. Maybe. A little bit.

Maybe its the girls fault that they throw themselves to Tony. Maybe its all about money. And a little about alcohol. Or more about alcohol. But the fact is still the same. This fucking fits to Tony. How he can't understand himself or the others but he wants to feel people (just not have sex with them, thats just some minor thing there somewhere) and somehow thats not how the world works. So he sleeps with a lot of people and thats life.

Yea. I liked this. I really did like this. And thats a huge surprise. Because Tony as an asexual is so fucking weird thought. I can't even get over the whole fact. Somehow it just all is and works and thats all that matter. Yeb.

And maybe the best part of the whole fic is how Tony doesn't understand the world around him and doesn't know how to act and people confuse him. Probably. I really liked that part. And I liked the whole fic just so.. Lets say the whole thing is amazing and unexpected and shit. So yea.

(Now Im probably also suppose to admit that trying out the tag asexual (or the variations of it) was one of the best experiments of my whole life, maybe, lets not go over board with that thing)

So. Read, comment, leave kudos, what the fuck ever, as long as you show the author all the love they need. Thaaanks.

Could Not Stop for Death [The Avengers, Loki/Tony Stark, Pepper Potts/Tony Stark, NC-17, death]

Could Not Stop for Death by Vera (Vera_DragonMuse)

Tony just wanted to retire. He was tired, ready to lay down his arms, but then an old enemy abducts him and leads him through a series of revelations that end somewhere unexpected.

This one probably contains all the things I have been thinking. Why are we living here, the purpose of life. How tired it is to be living. And so on. Those are probably also the reasons why I cried at the end of this fic. Probably. I cant be sure because they way Loki and Tony think in this about how tired they are and things like that are also why I can totally understand them and that makes the fic even better.

And all the things are happening in some kinda time loop where the time stays still and is kinda eternal paradise.. Yea. And everything there is kinda in Loki's head and how tired Loki is in living and all he wants to do is to die. But being a god and having the destiny to destroy the universe makes the whole dieing business so much harder. Thats also the reason why there is the whole Marjo Character Death in the warnings, at least I think so.

But it all didnt go the way I thought it would go. I thought there would be falling in love and then when Tony dies Loki just doesnt feel the reason to live and so his magic just dies a little bit by bit. And now when I said that the whole sounds just stupid which is why the fic is so awesome. You cant quess the ending no matter how you watch it. Yea.

The other things that make the fic so good are all the forever questions about why we are living and how Loki is actually, on his own way, answering to those questions. To me those answers are good and why not to be the real ones. So all in all this whole fic is one big journey to the heart of what living means, at least to me it feels like that. Yeaa... I really dont know what else to say.