King of Kingz [Tokio Hotel, Billshido, NC-17, drugs, violence, death]

King of Kingz by Raiju
Spanish translate: King of Kingz by Jean_Snape
French translate: King of Kingz
German translate: King of Kingz by little-green-fairy

Keep your friends close, but keep your enemies closer.
In a business where discretion is key and loyalty is valued above all else- where a bullet wound or a murder is considered an 'occupational hazard'- there are mistakes to be made, lives to ruin, families to tear apart, and so many enemies to gain. He who began as a man, became a power-hungry monster. He who began as an innocent, became a cold-blooded killer.

When both become caught up in a twisted game of cat-and-mouse, who will be crowned the victor?

Before you even read this post, or even think about reading the whole fic I have to warn you that this isnt a children story where you have happy endings and happy couples and the prince in shining armor. This is fic with lots of and lots of violence (mental, physical, whatever), this isnt probably the best fic about surviving from the bottom back to the top, this is probably the fic where you see the bottom you think is the bottom isnt really the bottom, because you can fall so much more.

Blogging about this one is probably as hard for me as it was to read this fic, and I couldnt even finish the whole fic. That doesnt say the fic is bad in any kind that normally would make me to stop reading this. More like there are so much... how to say it? Not violence (there is lot of that too), but more like mental violence. Yea. That sounds pretty right. What I mean by mental violence is kinda tricky. There are lifes that are so fucked up in so many levels that no one can survive from it and continue as they were and that is the starting point in this fic.

The story goes for every character to find the new me and how they can handle the new me. It doesnt mean the new me is good or bad. It means that they try to do good for themselves. Yea. With Tom in jail and Bill trying to get enough money to survive there comes Bushido who wants to help Bill to get his life back, at least part of it back. And there are so many turning points in this fic that telling the plot is kinda useless because sometimes it feels like there isnt a one real plot there. This just feels like it is part of a life that is almost all about having the balls to do something and then just doing that. Probably thats the reason why I love this so much.

I have always wanted to read a fic where there is at least one person who have the balls to do anything he can even think of. And this fic is that fic. There is Bushido who is kinda the whole world's boss but the world is the underworld where he makes the rules and decides who is going to live and who is going to die. After that there is this sweet and innocent Bill who the downfall has almost destroyed and has lost almost all his believing in the world. In other words, Bill is lost and alone and he has literally nothing when Bushido comes back to his life.

And this whole fic is all about those two crashing together and destroying things together. And this fic is all I have ever wanted to read (or write) in my life. Nothing less, nothing more.

The thing is that this is too good, too real, too rough, too perfect for me too read. Im going to read this to the end at some point, but it needs time because this is exhausting to read emotionally. There is just so much anger, domination, violence and the gruelty of the human kind that sometimes you just have to stop for a while and think why are you even reading this. And that alone is giving me so much respect towards Raiju. I dont even wanna think what it was like to write this story butn still I would love to know Raiju's view of the world better.

I dont know anything else but this is perfection. Just that. Nothing else. And Im going to finish reading this and if you think you can handle it, read this. I promise it wont let you down with quality or anything else. Only thing that can let you down with this fic is if you can handle it or not. Nothing else. Above that this is perfection.

//Edit 9.1.2014
The endings are crappy and I hate them and they normally dont change my opinion about fics which is why I dont mind blogging about fics while they are in progress or Im just in middle of the fic, not near finishing. But this. This is The Fic, like The One or the choosen one and all that cliche crap. Because this is what I love in fic world, what I have always wanted to read, to write, to experience.

All that because this didnt make me cry or laugh. It kinda just sucked every single one emotion out of me until the end came and let you rest for a while and let those emotions to come (like every character in this one was able to crash, let go in the end because they could be just humans from now on). Yea. Thats it. And my opinion about this fic has changed millions of time but never to the point where I wanted to stop reading or disliking. More like how I hate some characters and how I now like someone and how I want the fic to end and how I cant believe something. Almost in every part through this my opinion changed and are still changing cuz I dont know what to think about the final ending.

I never really thought Raiju would be shitty writer or that I wouldnt like (or love) her fics. I knew I would like them if I just read them through. But this is the first one I finished, started, even when it took me over three years to get this point. And Im gonna start another of her fics as soon as I get back home. 

And yea. Right now my biggest worry is what the fuck am I gonna comment to this because I cannot just not comment. Yea. And to you, who may want to some day read this fic, do it but remember this is not childs story with happy endings. They kinda get their own happy ending but life isnt about happy endings and you can see that thing in there. So read but dont expect the best for the characters, always wait for the worst because its yet to come. Yea.

And just  one more thing. Renn. After finishing this thing I can understand whole Bill's growing in this, I can understand how he was able to do half of these things and survive. And I fell in love with Renn in the end. Because he was partly the only reason why Bill was still sane and had a hope for the better even when it felt like he was the fault of Bill's doom. yeaa... I just love Renn. And Im probably gonna add that thought to the comment Im gonna comment to Raiju. Yeaaa..

Two Sides Of The Coin [The Avengers, Loki/Tony Stark, NC-17]

Two Sides Of The Coin by magical-notes

If asked, Tony Stark would be hard pressed to figure out how Loki Laufeyson ended up in his bed, or how the chaos god continued being there. But he can't deny enjoying it.

Okey. Im saying it. Im so intoLoki/Iron Man fiction that... yea. Seriously suggest me some good ones I will read them. Not kidding. And I dont even know why I like these ones so much but I do so keeping me happy shouldnt be so hard.

Hopefully this one can keep me happy a while longer (still hadnt finished) because this is just way too good and awesome and all that. Its just that all that how Tony is kinda in love with Steve but while everything goes forward his feelings change. And the best part is how long his feelings takes to change. Seriously. Sometimes he doesnt even notice it himself but a little by little he just gets more out of love with Steve and maybe more in love with Loki. I havent really decided yet how far these two could go on in this.

Even more come Im amazed how well every character is their own. Its like they are all straight from Marvel's stories and the writer of this fic just put them to these scenes and thats it. It awesome to see how some people can really keep the characters loyal to themselves. Its just amazing. Which leads to the dialogue in this. Just holy fuck and fucking read it. Because when, like example Thor, says something you can picture the whole person and their voice in your head and fuck it feels real.

Okey. After Ive finished this, can I start again from the beging ? This is just that good. Seriously. There maybe some weak points but when there are all the the things I just appreciate in good fics I can totally overlook some stupid shits. Like when their relationship comes to light people's reactions are kinda weird.. I just didnt like it that much (okey they were still in character and the repliks and all) because there was some stupid shit but I still liked it cuz it felt like this is how it could have gone. Yea.

So. If you like either Tony (Iron Man) or Loki, just fuckin read this. Do it for me and fall in love. So worth it. No kidding.

Only Fools Rush In [Harry Potter, HD, Harry/Ginny, NC-17]

Only Fools Rush In by Digitallace

D/H Slash - When Ginny breaks things off with him, Harry turns to his work partner Draco for comfort, but can Draco provide more than just simple friendship and a couch to sleep on?

Can I just skip this stupid thing where I just rant without any reason and just tell the plot? Okey. Good.

The whole fic is about how everyone is secretly gay. Ha. No. Just joking. But Harry is gay and doesnt know it or he knows it but is afraid of telling himself that or something. Malfoy is openly gay and Ginny kicks Harry out of their apartment because of reasons. And Malfoy fucks almost everyone who comes two metre radius. Yup. That sounds more like it.

This isnt a crack fic, Im just too tired to really give a shit how to explain everything so it all could sound nice and beautiful and shit. But now when I think about it, this could make a damn good crack fic, maybe. I dont read crack that much so I dont really know.

But back to the fic itself. I really liked how everyone had their own secrets and the writer didnt just tell them to you via some stupid excuse. The characters told their own secrest when the time was right or just blurted them out by accident. Still the secrets werent just secrets, they affected to the characters behavior even when sometimes it felt like they didnt but they still did. And then I liked how awkward some things were. It just bought out how human they were after all.

Then there are all the things that are just piling up.

Okey. The thing I dont like is the reason why Ginny and Harry broke up. Okey. The reason itself is good and so on but how Harry acts after it its kinda odd. Im not gonna tell the reason cuz its just gonna spoil the fic but everyone else is acting like they are kinda suppose to but Harry is just... kinda denial or something. But even if he is in denial I think he still acts kinda odd.

Well it could all be in my head and it doesnt really destroy the fic so maybe Im again complaining about too minor things. Ha. So the fic is still good and I think I have read this through three times at least. So that should be telling something. Yup.

Too Many Potters [Harry Potter, HD, NC-17]

Too Many Potters by Cheryl Dyson

The Weasley Twins throw a party to celebrate the creation of a new potion. This is so AU it's not even funny. This fic contains MATURE adult content.

Im so gonna read this again. After I have survived from the first time. Seriously. This is that good. Ha.

Anyways. The twins throw a  party and every guest is suppose to be someone else with polyjuice that the twins have altered a little bit. Ofc Harry becomes Draco Malfoy and thats when all the fun begins. And you can pretty much guess how the whole thing ends. But does it even matter when the best part is how we got there ?

First of all the whole place is full of Harrys. Doesnt matter where he watches he can see an another copy of him.
Second of all... Draco Malfoy goes as Harry too. Okey. That is kinda spoiler but after you have read the fic you can understand why it isnt actually a spoiler.

But why I liked this one? I have never, ever read anything like this before, seriously. This just came so fucking out of blue that I cant even really understand the whole thing yet. It just with all the Harrys and the real Harry in middle of them and hooking up with one of the copies of himself. C'moon. Thats just nuts and something no one seriously should even think about.

And normally when I read something so different and unique like this the writing style is off or is somehow shitty but not in this one. Its good and you really get hooked on it. So there isnt really any reason not to read this. Yea. So. READ THIS NOW if you hadnt already.

Untamed [The Mortal Instruments, Clary/Jace, NC-17]

Untamed by Niknakz93

:AU: For Clary, the sheltered life of being a Morgenstern is the most agonizing thing in the world. The strict rules, the lack of freedom... it's not a question of if she will go mad, it's when. Luckily for her, she discovers a welcomed escape named Jace. But how do you handle a boy that's as deadly and dangerous as the beasts he trains.

The Mortal Instruments... I was expecting the whole fic scene to be kinda big with different, unique plots but what I got was stupid stories without any reasoning. Its just that there are so many oportunities and how it all could be next Harry Potter ficworld. But no. I read two chapters of one fic before this one and the character had a change to pretty much go back in time and undo everything and not mess up her life. But no. She didnt. She even wanted but didnt do it and in the end there was no fucking reason why she didnt just do it. You can pretty much guess that kinda did it for me. Okey. I get that the plot was suppose to have that one little twist but still it would be awesome to have at least some reasoning in the characters choices especially when the shit is written from their perspective.

But I didnt give up after that. No. I wanted to find at least ONE good Mortal Instruments fic that I at least could read from the beging to the end. And then I found this. Okey. Im still not gonna say that this fic is one of the best fics I have ever read or that I really loved this one. But at least this one got potential to be something more than others I tried to read.

So Untamed. This isnt really perfect fic, more like lets make everyone jealous of everyone. And so there is Jace who has a crush on Clary and vice versa. Then there is Jonathan who is such a slut (well, Jace is a slut too but yea) and he falls in love with Alex. We cant forget the run, where they ride demonic horses on a lake and that brings a lot of glory and shit like that. So. The whole thing is more like everyone hating each other and then falling in love and shitty people being shitty.

I know that my plot explaining isnt the best but I have no idea how to tell you what happens in this one without giving too much spoilers. But back to the fic and what I liked and disliked. He.

The thing I fell in love, and the reason why I continued to read this, is the idea. Seriously. Demonic horses and riding with them with the chance that one mistake could get you killed. Seriously. This is the reason why there are good fanfiction. People getting inspired from something good and then making it sound, look, feel even better. Yea.

But to my sorrow, really, that is pretty much all it goes with the good stuff. Okey. This isnt like bad, bad (Im still reading, 5 chapters left and Im planning to read this through, so this isnt total shit) but this isnt the best of all either. Okey. Maybe it has something to do with things that arent even possibly. Seriously, how fast you think someone can learn how to ride or even control a horse, without speaking that that creature could kill you? Not that fast. Lets just say that you dont do it in two months. Seriously. Even if you had in your blood or some other shit. Okey. This is fiction where everything is possibly but I still believe there should be some rules in fantasy too. After all they are riding monsters that can kill you just with waving their heads.

The rest? I dont know. I dont wanna diss this fic anymore because the writing isnt that bad, sometimes its even great and I really like it then. I just want more "rules", like physic rules or shit like that to make the fic more believable. So without some beauty details you should totally try this one and if you have just seen the movie and not read the books or have no idea about lots of things... Well. Its gonna be fun. Ha.

Take Your Traditions And- [Harry Potter, HD, Harry/Ginny, NC-17]

Take Your Traditions And- by Lomonaaeren

Oneshot, HPDM slash. Harry and Ginny are getting married because, well, it's what everyone expects them to do. It's like Draco Malfoy to start Courting Harry right in the middle of the wedding preparations.

Okey. So... I was gonna start this with something like "this is just some small two shot ficci where everything is trying to find its own place". But this is not short... More like twoshot with 21 thousand words or something like that. But the rest still sounds pretty good and right.

So this all is just Harry and Ginny getting married. Harry isn't so happy with everything that is going on and neither is Ginny. But they are going to do it just because the world needs to see the hero getting married. Yeaaa. And then comes Draco who wants to court Harry. Harry has no idea what it even means so he is just reacting and being stupid as usual.

I cant really say why I liked this enough to blog about this cuz I dont know. I dont even know if I liked Ginny in this one. She was just so... quiet and then out of fucking nowhere she became so happy and all. It just bothers me how much every character hide something. Like Ginny hided her lover and Harry hided his "depression".

And then everybody was just so selfless and did everything to everyone else. Maybe its just in my head but it just doesnt seem normal that they couldnt do this one thing for themselves even when they werent happy with it and how it was almost destroying the rest of their lives.

So. I really dont know why I liked this one. There are just so many things I dislike or arent so happy about. Ugh. Sometimes blogging about fics is just hard. Seriously.