When Buds Break [Harry Potter, Drarry, nc-17, oneshot]

When Buds Break by Andithiel 

Harry and Draco agreed that they’d keep on secretly (but exclusively) fucking each other as long as no one caught any feelings. Which is working just fine, really. The problem isn’t only that Harry would like to be allowed to stay the night occasionally. No, the real problem is that Draco has started coughing up flowers. 

I'm not telling you how many Hanahaki disease fics I have read recently. No way in hell. (By the way, when will it need its own tag?)

There seems to just be one thing in common in all of the fics. It's always Draco who gets sick. I only remember one fic where it was Harry, and that was really short compared to the rest. And Im not even sure if I would like to read a fic where Harry gets sick. Somehow, this just has to be Draco's pov to make it good. I don't even know why. 

But all in all. These are the reasons why I keep crying every day. Maybe I am just a glutton for punishment? Or something. Really something.

all the time in the world [Harry Potter, Drarry, oneshot]

all the time in the world by MoreSonorous 

Draco Malfoy is dying. Harry Potter is both the cause and the cure. 

I'm stuck with this idea about what about the life after. The possible break-up, or the guilt about being together, or forcing them to be together because otherwise Draco will die. Basically, there is always this doom and gloom in their relationship after Draco gets better. 

Yea. Okay. Maybe the idea is not so bad, when you think about it. They could both fall out of love and that way, Draco wouldn't get sick again. Or maybe this is somehow linked to soulmates, and the one can't be without the other. Or something like that. 

 Those were literally the only things I could think about when I was reading this. Because this is another one of those fics that I have read more than once, so I can waste some of the story thinking about everything else. And all of that is there to say, this is good, really good. And I will read this a third time at some point. Not right now, because I have three other fics open and I want to finish them first.

So if anyone knows a fic that even touches that whole subject, please link and share. I would love to read it next. And, if I wasn't somehow super clear about this, this is another Hanahaki disease fic. Yea.  

 

Garden of You [Harry Potter, Drarry, oneshot]

Garden of You by thoracicduck (aproposofeverything) 

Draco has Hanahaki Disease, and he would rather die than admit that he's liked his childhood nemesis all along (for reasons he does not expect); Harry warms up slowly to his unusual friend with a mysterious disease that doesn't get better. 

 A story of two men reopening old wounds and seeking comfort in each other's presence, wherein they find common ground in unspoken grief.

I have read this twice now and wouldnt say no to a third time. 

Draco is living in remorse and is just ready to die. Of course Harry interviews and tries to save him. No one knows anything but Draco and he is content with that. 

But all of this just made me cry. There really werent that many parts where I wasnt crying. So yea. This is sad, with semi happy ending. Okay. The ending is promising happy times but doesnt really go that far. 

And this is really worth the read. Just be ready to cry. Yea. 

Pull My Hair a Little Harder Please [Harry Potter, Drarry, multichapter]

Pull My Hair a Little Harder Please by batondecannelle

“Potter,” he says. 

Harry’s knees feel weak. He stumbles a few feet closer to the other boy and then stops. His chest feels tight, and his vision is swimming, and he doesn’t know how to ask for what he desperately needs. 

“I’m, I’m—” he stammers, his hands shaking. 

Draco looks around them at the empty library, and then back at Harry. “Come here,” he says. 

-- 

Harry was excited to come back for one more year of Hogwarts. One last year where there’s nothing to worry about, no basilisks or dementors or psychotic murderers. 

So why does he keep having panic attacks, and why is it always Draco Malfoy finding him right in the middle of one? 

It sounds really weird that there is not that many fics about mental health in Potter fandom. Like.  You have a world where has been a war with children being the most importat characters. And people just keep writing like none of that really happened or matters. Don't get me wrong, I love those fics too, but Im kind of just waiting more of these kinds of fics? If that makes any sense.

Okay. This is still not a way to deal with mental health and depression and PTSD. But in fiction, this is okay and fine. All that other stuff on the other hand, how out of it Harry was without even understanding it. How it just got worse and worse. How he didn't have any tools to help himself or understand what was going. Those are the parts I liked about this. This felt real, like he really was lost and everything had just gone to shits. 

Draco was left as a little bit mysterious. I liked that. I liked how it was all about Harry surviving and trying to understand. Everything else was just background, even if it helped. But nothing was really clear or linear in here, it was just how Harry felt everything. Mushy, dark, hopeless, sad, lost.  

growing irises (in the sunshine) [Harry Potter, Drarry, nc-17, oneshot]

growing irises (in the sunshine) by inkedquill 

Draco Malfoy is very good at being Harry Potter’s friend, and especially so at pretending he hasn’t been in love with him since long before. 

Too bad his eyes didn’t seem to get the memo. 

Or alternatively, Draco is made aware of the fact that his pupils visibly dilate whenever Harry is around, apparently an irrepressible sign of attraction or arousal. He freaks out.

Almost 20k words of idiots being in love. Fucking hell. Am I so messed up that this is really what I love to read the most? Like fucking hell. There is something seriously wrong with me (and all those people who love to write this shit, still kudos to all of you, I love you and all the hard work you do).

I wish I had something else to say. But thats the whole plot and its just so good and well written that there is nothing else to add. Enjoy!

I'll never be your chosen one [Harry Potter, Drarry, oneshot, nc-17]

I'll never be your chosen one by Andithiel 

Draco doesn't know what exactly he’s doing with Potter, he doesn't know how their unspoken agreement even started, and doesn't know where it will end. The only thing he knows is: he's not in love. 

Im not crying, you are crying. 

Honestly, it seems like Im back to promoting porn. There is a plot and in a way this is more plot than porn. But it feels like pure filth. You can take that as any way you really want.

 The main point is. Draco is not in love. 

The Other Blond at Number Four [Harry Potter, Drarry, nc-17, oneshot]

The Other Blond at Number Four by syringe  

Dudley shouldn't be surprised that it's Malfoy, but he can't help the bewilderment that overwhelms him when he sees that mean little face screwed up in pleasure, staring up at his cousin with starry eyed adoration. 

Dudley finds out about a terrifying blonde freak straight from the dark side (!) shacking up with his cousin right here in his home. Naturally, he goes snooping...

Now I want to read more of Dudley and Malfoy's interactions. Shit. 

But the thing. Both of them were so on point with their personalities and actions. Just perfect. 

A Lick and a Promise [Harry Potter, Drarry, nc-17]

 A Lick and a Promise by tackytiger

Something sinister stirs in Hogwarts! 

When magical creatures and students at the school are hit with a debilitating blood curse, Minerva McGonagall approaches the Ministry for help. 

Star Auror Harry Potter seems to be the obvious choice to go undercover—as DADA Professor, naturally. He’s going to need the help of the Ministry’s foremost expert in blood magic to get to the bottom of the mystery, though, and he’s not entirely convinced that going back to Hogwarts with Draco Malfoy is a good idea. 

Things are complicated between them—what’s new?—but they know they have to learn to work together (and keep their hands off each other in the corridors) in order to solve this case. Luckily for them, Hogwarts itself wants to lend a hand. 

A tale of love, lessons, and learning to really live.

There was two things I was waiting to happen. Which one cracks first about wanting a real relationship. When does Harry crack about loving teaching (or is it Draco who has had enough of watching Harry love it and cracks for him).

And well. I had to wait a really long time. In the end, both crackings were kind of sidenotes and not so magnificent. Or maybe I had just hyped a little too much and waited something a little too much. But they were there! And they were still awesome.

I didn't really think about the actual plot that much for some reason. But in the end, the plot was good and one of the best parts of this. I was just shit at appriciating it along the journey. 

Even the ending was satisfying and everything I wished for. So yea. Just awesome piece of literature this was.

 

Ink (My Skin With Your Name) [Harry Potter, Drarry, oneshot]

Ink (My Skin With Your Name) by Kandakicksass

Several years after the war, an ostracized Draco Malfoy covers himself in tattoos, becomes best friends with a muggle, and debates abandoning magical society entirely to work in a tattoo shop. All in all, he's having a hell of a time trying to figure out who he is and what he wants to do with his life. The last thing he needs is to run into Harry Potter, who seems intent on becoming his friend, even if he has to get a lot of ink to do it.

I was not sure if I wanted to write about this one. Not because this isn't good, because this is, this is awesome. But more like, do I wanna come back to this fic and read this again and would I still like this that much. I probably would, but the point. 

Maybe the part that worries me more is about how I have nothing to say about this one. Or that, this wasn't the lighlight of my day or maybe Im just missing something. Maybe. I don't know. 

The main thing still is that this is goooood. So goood. And I recommend this to everyone. Seriously. I just have problems. 

Can You Feel my Heart? [Harry Potter, Drarry, Nc-17]

Can You Feel my Heart? by MelCalder 

There are no words in the English language to describe what Draco has been through, nor is there anything worth talking about. Until that changes Draco is going to stay mute.

I almost gave up reading this in the beginning. I dont remember why and I am glad that I didnt. 

This whole thing feels real. Like you really survive a war and this is how you end up. There is nothing to live for, everything is shit, you cant deal with the sadness or anything else and everything has fallen apart. 

My favorite part was how others talked about Harry. How they saw Harry and how he was broken and how Draco in a way helped him. One other good thing was the comments about Harry's childhood and how he doesn't even comprehend how bad it really was. Like to him it was just normal day, but to everyone else it was the worst. Same goes with the line "they tried to beat the wizard out of him". 

Draco being lost was also really well written. Everything moved forward, but he didn't. Things happened, but he didn't notice, care or wasn't even aware of them. Just because he was lost in his own head. The same goes about his recovery and how slow it was, even when it sometimes it felt fast and rushed. But it was slow and you could enjoy every little milestone that he took. 

This whole thing just hit me so deep and got stuck. And I really don't even have to words to express that. 

If stars died of old age [Harry Potter, Drarry, oneshot]

If stars died of old age by DefNotForWork 

His mother had had six months after his father had died. But it was expected; they had prepared and were already rather distanced. Draco hadn’t been ready, and Merlin, he had been so in love. He knew he was counting down in weeks, not months.

Wanna have a good cry for the day? Wanna feel the worst sadness ever? Wanna break your own heart? Wanna read a story with a happy ending? If all of those were yeses, then read this. Thank you. 

Telling the Bees [Harry Potter, Drarry, oneshot]

Telling the Bees by hiimcibee 

Scorpius’ body was found in Hogwarts one early morning.

This wrecked me. I knew it would, before I even started reading but Im really in the mood for sad fics. The sadder the better. Or something. 

I just. The word I want to use is quietness. Slow life just happening and its just quiet. This is the only feeling I really got out of this. I dont even know if it makes sense. But thats how I feel about this. 

There were some really cute stories about how everyone became friends. What drove everyone to do the things they did. Even falling in love just was there, it was just part of life and happened without anyone noticing. Just life going and living. Yea. 

I still have to warn that this will wreck you. The best way possible. Will destroy every happy thing you have in you and just be the saddest, truest there is right now. But in the end, you will be happy that you read this. That is something I can promise. 

Still [Harry Potter, Drarry, oneshot]

Still by alexmeg 

Dating Draco Malfoy, Harry thinks, will mean being at arms length outside of sex. No unnecessary physical contact or displays of affection. He wants him anyway, inexplicably. Perhaps that is exactly the kind of person he should be with, someone who will never need Harry to kiss him first, because Harry doesn't think he'll ever be that person.

I felt that. All of that. Just. I know on some level what Harry is feeling and how hard that is. Because you get lost in your own head and don't know how to actually put it into words. 

Draco was so lovely and helpfull and just perfect. There was also finally some kind of communication and not just expectation that the other will know and understand. 

All in a day| Day One [Harry Potter, Drarry, Nc-17, oneshot]

All in a day| Day One by BreathingDreamsLikeAir 

Years after the war, Draco Malfoy is broke, disgraced, and trapped, his assets frozen by magical decree until he produces an heir. But no one will marry a former Death Eater, and being gay makes the demand even crueler. Desperate, he turns to the only man with enough power to help him: Harry Potter, now a respected Lord of the Wizengamot. Draco expects political aid or help finding a suitable wife. What he doesn’t expect is Harry’s offer: become his consort, bear their children, and earn back his legacy through submission. With nowhere else to turn, Draco agrees, plunging into a cold, commanding household where his body becomes both sanctuary and sentence.

I dont usually even read fics like these. Im not even 100% why I opened this or liked this so much. But this just hit some dark spot in me and I would love to read more of this. 

The thing is, this is dark. Harry is dark, the world is dar (for Draco at least). And there is no better life for Draco besides all this. So he makes do and Harry uses him for all his pleasure. Thats it. 

I have warned you. Only read, if you are really up to it and mind the tags. 

i demand to dig my own grave [Harry Potter, Drarry]

i demand to dig my own grave by M0stlyVoid 

Draco finds himself in hot water with the Aurors, and in a burst of panicked inspiration manages to wiggle out of it by claiming to be a Seer. There's just one little problem– Senior Auror Harry Potter, the Prat Who Lived, who's known him for a decade, knows full well Draco doesn't have a single psychic bone in his body and seems determined to pull him up for it. Now, the Department is demanding he help them solve cases, Potter's looming over his shoulder at every turn, and worst of all, he hasn't had a shag in weeks because of all this bother. What's a pseudo-Seer to do?

I have been reading a lot these past months. But for some reason I have to shared any of those fics here. No clue why, but I am trying to do better. Hopefully. We will see. 

This one was fun, quirky and somehow really deep. I dont usually like Auror Harry, but in this one he was really better than in most. And somehow, being a rich, jobless snobb fits Draco perfectly. Okay. Draco can be anything and it would fit him perfectly. 

One weird thing I really did like, was those small parts about Draco's childhood. It was so refreshing to see Lucius being a good father and how he gave Draco a good childhood. And at the same time, it explained really well why Draco was able to read people as well as Sherlock would. I really liked all that about Draco. 

So please. Go, read and have fun with this one. 

Mise en Place [Harry Potter, Drarry, oneshot]

Mise en Place by corvuscrowned 

Draco needs to learn how to cook, and luckily, Harry knows his way around a kitchen. 

The fact that Draco is using his newfound cooking skills to impress another man... Well, Harry just tries not to think about that too much. 

But somewhere, among all of the spicing and savoring, Harry realizes that Draco is coming by for more than just a good meal.

You know the plot, how it ends and everything in between. But still the cuteness, the questions how and when and two idiots in love, make it even better and worth it. 

By the way, I hate cooking. But I still love this.  

Landslide [Harry Potter, Draco/Harry/Blaise, nc-17]

Landslide by dreamkiller 

 “I’m sorry” Draco said. He dabbed at his mouth from where he’d almost spat out his drink. “Did I just hear you say that you have a boyfriend?”

Throuple is forever one of my favorite tropes (pairings?). And these three together make it even better. 

To be honest. This was like third or fourth fic I tried to read about them. Tried as in all the others where shite and I couldnt even finish them because they were that bad. I tried. I even tried just force myself to read them, but nope. I just couldnt do it. 

Thank fucking god I finally found this. Hope is not completly lost. 

So please. Go and read this. Now. Hurry.  

fly like paper, high like planes [Harry Potter, Drarry]

fly like paper, high like planes by harryromper 

Harry Potter, Head Coach of the Appleby Arrows, is very content leading a quiet life. He has a doddery old house-elf who makes his breakfast, a team of players who love Quidditch almost as much as he does, and a Kneazle that curls against his damaged leg at the foot of his bed at night. The absolute last thing he needs is a fit, tattooed, and wildly talented Draco Malfoy back from living his life on the margins. Soon he’s dealing with goblins for the first time since the war, traveling to Prague, eating dodgy squid, and maybe, just maybe, accepting that Quidditch, Malfoy, and even Harry himself are still capable of change.

Fuck my life. Its been awhile since I was this hooked to a fic. And Im not just saying that this is really good (which it obviously is) but more like I was waiting and being anxious and just ready to jump at any time there was something happening. 

Its not even that it took 1/4 of the fic before Draco was even mentioned. Its not even that I can understand Harry who cant fly anymore and how that is the shittiest thing ever to happen. Its not even finally being hooked on Quidditch. No. 

Its the whole world in Quidditch, its how Pansy just changes everything and how much background there is to evrything. And in the sidelines all the feelings and two stubborn idiots. I just. I wish I could read this again without remembering any of it. Thats it. Thats what I want. 

Half Sick of Shadows [Harry Potter, Drarry, Nc-17]

 Half Sick of Shadows by StarQuesting

 Harry and Draco have been sleeping together for months, and it's fine. It's enough for Harry. But when things finally start to feel like the more Harry's been hoping for, a strange tapestry project has him worrying he won't ever get the chance. Or: the one with sheep, dragons, and a whole lot of weaving metaphors.

I have been reading a lot lately. A lot of HP fiction, mostly Drarry but Manacled was there too. And it has been kinda 50/50 in hits and misses. But now I feel like I have found more gems than anything else. 

This was really good from the start and how Draco was describled. All the tattoos, piercings, hair and whatnot. I just fell in love with the whole picture. So no wonder I also loved the story. 

Find Your Way Back [Harry Potter, Drarry, Nc-17]

 Find Your Way Back by unadulteratedstorycollector

Thirty years ago, Draco Malfoy requested a divorce from Harry Potter, but somehow their marriage bond was never severed. Now Harry wants to break the bond, marry his new fiancé, and continue getting on with his life. But Draco's not sure he's willing to let him go a second time.

Hey! Im not promoting porn anymore! There is a little bit porn in the end, but thats just everyday fic for you. 

Never Mind the Bollocks [Harry Potter, Drarry, Nc-17, multichapter]

Never Mind the Bollocks by The_Sinking_Ship 

If someone told Harry six months ago that by autumn he would be single, living on whisky and toast, and dancing the night away with Draco Malfoy, he would have told them to get their head checked. 

 And yet, here he was.

For some reason this is excatly what I would love to read more right now. Two people who are just lost in the big, scary world. They find each other, they get even more lost and then they figure some shit out. 

There are drugs, sex, alcohol, partying, violence and everything else. And this just checked every single box for me. 

So please. Do recommend other fics like this one. Thanks.  

Sore [Harry Potter, Drarry, Nc-17]

Sore by rubygreene

Harry is the Head of the Auror Department while Draco is slowly rising through the ranks in the Department of Magical Accidents and Catastrophes. 

They keep their relationship a secret. 

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Connected oneshots more than a chaptered fic. Mostly smut — way too much smut — with ~feelings~ and a tiny plot. Basically "Draco is a soft, gentle Dom, taking care of Harry's needs." And Harry is hot and powerful and terrifies other people. Also, they're madly in love, but shhh, don't tell Draco.

Im promoting pure porn. What has life come to? 

In all seriousness this is pure porn, pure filth and all those things. But this is also lovely dovey lovestory about two really funtional adults who have amazing communication skills. That does not mean they really talk about everything but almost.

This is also one of the best dom/sub fics I have ever read in terms of how.... it works and how they deal with everything. That saying, some of the things are still fictional and magic is the only reason why some of it could even make sense. But this is Harry Potter fic and magic is the reason behind everything.

So pretty please. If you like anything about porn, bdsm or Drarry, just read this. You wont be disapointed.